--Last night , 12 pluz midnight--
still furiously typin the minute...finally i feel that is something i can do...whaha..so miserable of me....everything just went blur ....the last thing i remember is brushin my teeth haha...

--This morning 11 pm--
i woke up ...screamin...i was late....as expected..sigh...anyway i din study for amaths ...so even if did go...its also sucide...haha...My head was screamin at me too...and much louder than before...i got so sick that i really dont want to go for work today...but no choice...

Dun feel like talkin much.....duno why...nothin interestin anyway....*huhz..mad ~~ just say something !! * .....dun wah lah.....hm....singapore is now declared sars free ?? everyone's happy~~ -_-"" okay okay i know its lame...cannot blame me man....most of my frenz are lamers...what can i do?? haha...no offence...i think i goin crazy soon..this person askin to download winamp player cuz he playin his songs live...and i have to try out the files my fren send me ..to see if i can play naruto esp 29 .....then this fren of mine talkin to me......and i'm writin my blog now.........haha.........suddenly i realised that its not my laptop that is multi function...its me that is multi function ...what am i talkin about ....crazy
Lolz...

I'm listenin to this song....bery cute...its goes " meow meow.. " erm..its goes likes this all the way...but its really cute
rabia called me just now...i'm goin to meet her tomorrow mornin...his boyfren's ..cousin or whoever so...is gonna get married....and she's gonna be the bridemaid...so i also invited...so i can disturb her hahah...but i think i'm missin out something...like i supposed to do something..but dunno wat is it...hm...neber mind lah ,
*yawn* very sleepy now.........
think goin to sleep liao.....sayonara~~

**supposed to post this last night**
toDay wAs SuCh a sUCky...i gOt sColded by This frEakin assHole......and ANother FrEakin hormosapien ....oops was the speLLin C0rrect? watEver...... thIS makeS my LIfe eveN m0re unBearAble.....SIgh....
** Around 6 Pluz** about 6 to 8 people surroundin me....some just Stand one c0rner and d0 the delcarati0n f0rm....th0se are the most dumbest...
human 1 : miss miss...you havent take my temperature
mad: oh okay okay...hold on huh...i need to give this sticker to this other man first
human 2 ( speak in chinese) : eh...i dun know how to read..write for me..
mad( huh~~ jialat) : orh ok ok ...u wait
human 3 : erm....so can i go now?
mad : oh just a min..u need ur sticker..
mad: sir can you pls state where are u goin to ?
human 4 : huh? erm i goin to ward 511
mad( pengz...why cant they just write it down...always have to ask them ) : ok...(stick the sticker on them...) okay ...go now

**by this time...all the people crowded or should i say ..they cant move their feet..all gathered at the entrance...

mad : hello ~~ sir~~ mdm~~ can you please forward~~ dun block the way...

all humans moved ...in a scattered directions...can cry sia...

then appears the freakin hormosapian !!
freakin hormo( givin me his form ) : miss miss...can you give me the sticker now..my wife is waitin ..
mad: oh sorry wait ..i give this guy the form first..
freakin hormo ( throws the pen onto the table...give me that kinda face) ..dunno what he talkin about also..no time to bother him
freakin hormo: have to wait so long~~
mad(keep quiet ..gives him the sticker ...back facin him...dun even to give a care bout him)

after many rushin here...people there...

appears another freakin asshole...(this is the worst case ever)
freakin asshole of all time : hello~~ you should give the sticker to those who are first in queue~~ i'll been here waitin for so long !!
mad (pissed off) : sir...obviously..there isn't any queue..they all just come in all directions...i dun have the time to ask them queue up in straight line

** besides...all these people are eduacated...dun they know what is the meanin of the word " order"...but sadly ...they dont..sigh..and thats when the tradgey happens
lightnin please ..

freakin asshole of all time ( throws the paper on the table ) : OKOK ...just take my temp...so TROUBLESOME...
mad: my exacts thoughts
(take temp for the asshole)
freakin asshole of all time(angry ..starin at me) : DUN DO IT SO HARD i tellin you...IF u NoT HAPPY I CAN DO IT MYSELF!
mad(turns to another human) : sure
** As i write the sticker for him ...i'm sure he was starin at him the whole time...you know..like the way you would descibe them
big and red eyes hahah....usually i would stick the sticker on the person and they can just go off...but for his case...
i dun even wana go near him ..so i just put it on my hand ..and he snatched it away from me...

The most annoyin thing happened ...
freakin asshole of all time : FUCKin CRAZY you know~~
mad(...really angry ) : please respect yourself sir....you are educated...so dun use these kinda words to demote yourself..
freakin asshole of all time : .....
(can hear him grumblin ...)
As for the rest of the humans standin there...waitin...somehow they just looked hushed...sigh
another maddenin thing is that....there is supposed to be another indian man to help me..and he didnt ....he was there for awhile then he went off...
and i saw him chattin with his another indian fren of his......SEein this really pissed me off...well i'm being racist or something..but before that i'll always dun like ..workin or studyin with any of them...
basically , i just dont want to do anything with them...
*Why? * well becauSe so far i never had an enjoyable or should i say peaceful experience with them...get what i mean? you cant trust them..they are also known for the laziness and greediness...
and the way they talk...you can even hear them when they are whisperin....
well i think i should stop..gosh i sound like a racist ...okay maybe i am...its just the image that i had of them...kinda hard to change cuz its been there for so long , it not that i wont make any indian frenz mah...i'll stilll have a few but not much, cause i still cant trust them...so i guess its the matter of trust .. :}

+Menu for t0day+
lunch----------
1 dose of brainfreeze = great slurp lah~~ hehe....

dinner ---------
1 dose of brainfreeze..(aGain??) wat to do...i'm addicted to it now..haha
1 h0td0t with h0neyMustard and chiLi ...yum Yum~~

I feel SO....lazy today....y? cuz I just seem to make myself move......i cant make myself wake up early...I Just wOke up with the blank face ...the neXt thing i Know...my mom plaCed my BreakFast on the table..Sushi~~ hehe...my fave...pluz a big cup of milk...mixed with chocolate milk as well....hehe....yum yum..SO...i din go runnin lor...but anyway i'm goin to do that at night...its so quiet you can hear only ur own breathing ....the pace of the heartbeat....wahhaha....oh shit haven finish my milk yet...

*yawns* i'm still sleepy...haha..too much sleep makes a person dumb...*who says that?* Me lah~~ din i just said that....duhz...

Kinda sick of workin...not that i dun like this job...i'm just Tired Of w0rkin during VAcation...get wat i mean? I waNNa leArn somEthing....SOmetHIng new...SomeThing thaT maKes pe0ple go "Wow~~ you know THis" there'S l0tsA thiNgs i waNNa leArn :

= photography
=yoga
=pilates
=rollerbladin....
=flash (haha...i still nt sure on how to use it)
=photoshop

and more than i can think of...hehe

for a fickle person like me....i still duno what am i goin for.....maybe to me...havin freedom is my life ba...haha...oh its rainin...so ...hey~ it rained~~~ wahhaa...finally~~~ oh wow..i feel the cool wind~~ its so nice~~ hahhaa....i love the rain...i always do...cause thats the time you will sit down and think about everything...your family..friends...school..future...maybe thats rainy days are meant for ...hehe.. :)

when all the sounds died out
you lay on ur bed
seekin warmth under the covers
knowin something is comin
right beneath your soul
a thing called loneliness
comes into your life
makin it more memorable

* got this from one of the episode of "boys be" ...just that i kinda changed it hehe....*

i just got this email from a classmate ...and i like this explanation :

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*english translation *
When asked " why do you like this person ? "
i can only tell you why i dun like a person....but not why i like this person
Liking someone ....its a feelin...But dislikin a person..thats a fact...a truth
facts are hard to explain...but feelins are unexplainable...unpredictable...

==hee...sorry for the poor translation...==

My brother aint tokin to me...till now...i also dun bother to talk to him...hm...the past few hours of my life seem to pass more peacefully...haaha...whatever....

Today's meeting...kinda...okay i guess, but i feel abit left out..somehow i dun understand what they are talkin about...derrick discussin with lionel...that dumb ben nv take me seriously, always give me that idiot face...not that i mind, just that..duno lah ...only discuss with ber...then cynwell , afiq and kaiJie start talkin rubbish..and me.....feel like sleepin...haha...

There's this lady came to view the flat ...around 7 pluz...so in the end i din go runnin...cuz the flat was looked like a disaster zone..all thankz to my brother...his shoes and socks are all over the floor....books and worksheets on the sofa...bag under the sofa(dun ask me how it get there!!) ...and all his stupid magic cards all on the table~~ and there he was sleepin so soundly on MY BED~~ luckily managin anger is one of my good points.....wahahha....so i have to clear up all the mess...well actually i prefer a bulldozer .....haha...okay back to the lady...she seem quite a nice person...and she kinda likes the flat...thats good news i guess...as for the price...i nt really sure lor....anyway...why should i tell you? :P hehe...

oh yea..i got a spiderman poster ~~ hehe....its from lionel...so i guess he will be readin this ba...thats very nice of you :) thankz haha....if we're able to move into the new flat....i will paste the poster on the CEILING~~ hehe ..(spell correctly right?? dun care lah) Phew...man its sure hot ....even at nights...cannot stand it anymore....so i din go runnin....sigh wat disappointment...but..i did some strength trainin exercise...bout only 20 mins....but i was so hungry i ate quite a bit...hehe...so wont make any difference ba....so I decide~~ aim to lose 5 kg ~~ within a month...i hope i can make it....but i dun reali gt enuff time to workout....unless...i wake up at 7 or 8am to go runnin....its been quite some time since i wake up early to run...feelin abit lazy i guess....aiya what am i thinkin~~ argh.....whatever...i think just get up early to do some exercise ...oops forget someone might be readin this....*blush* haha....

The house is so quiet now...you cant hardly believe what happened last night....*what happen huh? * Oh ...nothin much..just that my brother and i had a fight...haha..not verbal fightin anymore liao...hahaha...i know i sound sadistic...but i really cant stand him any longer...no way i am givin him to him .....In the end he got a cut at his mouth and i got a cut on my right hand...shit...now i cannot write properly...damn it...

Yesterday was the most borin day ever....i was feelin cranky..the people were being stupid...and rude...sigh....borin job...i spent almost all the time readin magzines....newpapers...straits time..whahha...the only busy hours are from 2 to 3 pluz...and 6 to 7 pluz...i cant believe how lazy i looked....like there's nothin to do..and i feel so ....like an idiot...no stress from this job...except you need to learn those words like paediatric...arcaedia(think this one spelled wrongly)..my fave word..LIPOsuction~~ wahaah.....i remember this auntie...very..lian type...she asked me in mandarin " i wan to go for liposuction ...go which floor huh?" I was a bit stunned...but i show her the way..my partner was laughin like hell.....

Last night when i reached home..........i feel so full of energy that i danced and danced for ...erm...bout only 1 hr ba..hehe...*no music arh? u dumb dumb ..of cause have lah...U turn to 98.7 Fm lor...sat and fri always got one....* haha....see i'm so smart...everyone loves me...haha...no lah...kiddin ...smart yes...everyone loves me? i dun think so...*sad*

Finally ~~ it rained~~ haha...just now...i think only lasted for a few mins...sigh...summer~~ it should be the time to go beach ...drool at the boys...hahaha...swim...soak in the sun's rays...must put sun block lah...yea for me i muz put sunblock..not sun tan...sigh...hehe...tomorrow gt 3do meetin...3do better be held at sentosa~~ PLease please...if not i tell ben i quit...whahahah...no lah kiddin...but i guess i will feel very pressured...esp when there's a big amount of money to be handled...haha..enough to buy the sony laptop....new PC with lcd screen ~~ haha...get one of those discman for runners~~ and the nike ovidian shoes...digital camera~~ wahha....i goin crazy liao...
So tml will be workin at 7 am to 2 pm~~ huh...have to sleep early...then hope the meetin ends early..so i can go runnin...its so so so so uncomfortable to not go runnin....esp when you see others runnin...you cant...argh such helpless feelin you have~~ :P

so...i cya tonight...oh yea muz give you a new name....*think* ......tell you tonight ba...haha...bleh bleh