i just cant stop thinking and thinking...
what irritates me most is
i cant stop it
i have to let those thoughts keep running thru my head
as if some sentimental aliens have invaded me

there's lots of letters in the mailbox today
a total of 15 letters
8 are mine

the best thing about letters are
they either bring you good news or bad news

all of them are good news
i got discount vouchers, complimentary vouchers
oh ya its my birthday month

only one is bad
bad enough to make me cry

wanted to talk to a friend badly
" you're still working meh?"
"nope"
"so how come didnt hear anything from you?"'

5 mins later...
" hello? are you there?"

another few minutes..
" okay never mind , i just want to talk to someone"

No answer
it sort of just makes me feel much more depressed

then someone came along
and sang a couple of songs
suddenly it just made me feel better
it made me laugh genuinely

i feel like a silly goose
i realize
i just want to laugh
some silly, goofy to laugh about

alright
its makin no sense

good night people

2nd July Urban Fest

Yours truly will be there
wahahahha
i cant wait for the VANS competition

i posted the details of the events twice
and the blogger just died on me TWICE
bloody hell
maybe it cant take so many colorful words

Date: 2 July 2005
Time: 1100 hrs to 2400 hrs
Venue: Somerset Road, Youth Park and surrounding areas (Free Admission)

Hightlights
Flying Fox
VANS skateboarding competition
InLine skating
Radio Heatwave ( sounds familiar? like DUH!) will be spinning different music throughout the day
R.E.A.L - local hip hop group will be showing off their moves and lyrical prowess

visit the official website : http://www.heartware.org/urbaninfest/

Lousy Thursday

*sulk*

Feeling lousy
really lousy

i quit my job yesterday
yea i can see some people rejocing over the news
=)
i feel sort of relieved too
i was panicky in the beginning
but its also something you have to get over it

now here's the problem
she still refuse to give me my salary
" you can go to MOM to lodge a complaint, i dont care. I can report against you as well"

bloody old hag
sigh

why things ended up like that?
feeling really lousy.........
feel like talking to someone..but who?

deep inside i am really afraid of loneliness
i dont like to do things alone
i'm not independent
i'm ready to be 20
its just too bad that growing up means having so independence and responsibility

upside down

The old witch said if i dont return her the signed contract
she wont give me salary

actually i truly love this job
it sort of changing me ..into a better person ( i can feel it myself okay!)
i become more organised, i can complete my things faster..i know how to communicate with an japanese CEO ( he likes naruto also !)
but its starting to make me feel sick of facing the witch
i'm constantly suffering from her verbal abuse

sigh.....
i must say i still didnt perform well enough
i'm still a very error-prone person
still.. its simply not fair for me to quit without getting my pay
the clients love me leh! haha

sigh......

the problem is the job market is very poor now
last night news reported employment rate will be going down very soon

sigh......

this time i really got no mood to go running..

yawn yawn yawn yawn

In a dilema..

i'm asked to sign a 1 year contract

i need advice
eh dont everytime read my blog only hor
muahahaha...
i'll post the contract details tonight..
muahahhahahhahahhahhaha

somehow i cant tolerate the witch anymore

its reaching 2 months only
but it feels like eternity

shit..
maybe i should break off with her
oh boy..i think she's gonna hate me

oh damn
power 98 is playing alicia keys' if i aint got you

still feeling zzzzzz
if only i got a wooden heart

..
oh ya..i got banana muffins for lunch!
hahahahahaha

...
i dont like mondays

Sunday

i woke up feeling sort of lost
because i know its the last day of the week

tomorrow will be monday
....
i dont like mondays
i just dont like
i dont like monday mornings
i dont like monday afternoons
i dont like monday evenings
i dont like monday nights

i feel like pinching everyone !

*pinch pinch pinch pinch*

maybe i go try pinching my dogs

i'm feeling tired..
physically mentally
maybe i do deserves this...
sigh

Sunday

i woke up feeling sort of lost
because i know its the last day of the week

tomorrow will be monday
....
i dont like mondays
i just dont like
i dont like monday mornings
i dont like monday afternoons
i dont like monday evenings
i dont like monday nights

i feel like pinching everyone !

*pinch pinch pinch pinch*

maybe i go try pinching my dogs

i feeling tired..
physically mentally