i am smiling
yeap .. finally i am able to smile
dont ask me why
if i know, i wouldnt be saying this

i giggled and laughed like a silly ignorant sec school girl last night
thanks shu hui !
oh yalah..i didnt avoid shu hui
i pushed her down from the bed ar! (inside joke)

elson and another friend showed up
U U U elson again !
okay never mind they just showed up to play card games with ric
and they found a new toy--> laser gun~
yes we never grow up

i was reading estella's blog just now
and saw those happy pictures of everyone
i see smiling couple pictures
everywhere are couples
pok Kay ric and seahorse shuHui
toot queen n king (ber and derick)
est n squid
the 2Cs ( collin and clara)
and i wondered where is mine?
what would it be like to smile and hold hands with him again?
( smile is fading)
quick! find the super glue!
but i cant blame anyone else but myself
if only i was a lil much more stronger to say no
if only i decide not to give anyone a single chance to make me weak
yalor if only
so?? *yawn*

Now next, to my fyp report
i seriously think i wont be able to finish and hand it up on time

i cant wait for fyp to be over
i got tons of things to do
and HELLO
i am gonna show you i got a life of my own

i'm hungry
i only had one packet of korean instant noodle for breakfast, lunch dinner
but i think its time for me to lose some weight
so i can squeeze into a nice dress for prom night

speaking of prom night, PROM NIGHT
okay i am speaking right from the bottom of my heart
I AM NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO IT AT ALL
......................... * 19 seconds later*
no i am still not..
maybe that explains why i am out of the committee
no lah kidding
not really ... *ponders*
suddenly i wish i am back into the committee
but.. words cannot be taken back
and they are happy to let me go
wahaha look on the brighter side right?
*i am entertaining myself*

stupid shu hui ! stop looking at my monitor
hahahhahahhahaa

eh this is supposed to be a happy entry
i wish i got time to go for my family gathering tomorrow..sighz
i miss my nieces and nephews
they make me feel important and nice

aiming 2.5 hr to finish a chapter....
tonight...no sleep~

stay overs is becoming a trend
sleepin less than 5 hours is becoming part of my life
i'm immune to headaches .. except dizzy spells
frownin in front of my laptop ...
ouch

There are so many things i want to do
There are so many people i want to stay away from

i wish i wish i wish
i hope i hope i hope

my dad's friend just passed away
a great woman
she was complainin of a severe headache
and then she fainted
hours later, she was declared brain dead
how fragil life is
now i wondered , will that happened to me ?
since i am always complainin of headaches...
CHOY
*TOUCH WOOD*

Another test

?? Which Angel Or Demon Are You ??
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she went to school with a happy and determined mindset
but the moment i stepped into the atrium
a sense of uneasiness came to her
should she just go back?
she thought to herself " since u are already here, you cant be that irresponsible
just do what you ought to do and disappear"
so she made her way to the table, where the people kept their eyes on their laptops
DUHZ?
okay never mind
the person with the blue cap looked up
and before she realized what's goin on... the person rolled his eyes at her
WHAT FOR?
she assumed he got something in his eyes that requires him to roll his eyes AROUND
instead of scratchin them
but no.. the intuition in her tells her .. the rolling eye action doesnt seem itcy at all
so it totally ruined that lil courage she gathered within her
and it made her sad and angry again
so she messaged her fairy god sis...( cuz she too young to be a mother le)
she : i am so upset! for no reason he TIAO ME!
fairy god sis : wah liew... then tiao him back lah !
she : i was too stunned to do anything.. how i know he would do that!
fairy god sis : dont care bout him lah!
she : orh...

Man this is so true

March 06 ,2005
As of this evening, you'll be thinking specifically about one person -- just the one. You may need to spend your time with others, or be duty-bound to take care of responsibilities, but your mind won't be there.


March 07, 2005

After days, or maybe even weeks, of trying, you're done. You're ready to say goodbye. Whether it's a person or a lifestyle that you're letting go of, it won't be easy -- but you'll do it. Just stay focused on your goal