do i have friends?
i mean, true friends

i doubt so.
glad, the only friend who might..really know me well..isnt around for me anymore

rabia changed...but i still love her
she never fails to amaze me with her life stories...

does being in a friendship requires commitment?

friends..are the ones who will love you ..even they dont say so
are they?

i went shopping yesterday with a bunch of people whom i hardly know so well..
we are friends right?

i just realized ..for these 3 years ..did i manage to find a true friend?
i thought i did..
but he wasnt..
he was a total stranger all along
i misplaced my trust
so who should i believe?
what should i believe?

i dont think you can trust anyone
except yourself
people will just turn cold and selfish anytime
they give excuses ... they apologize..
do they really mean it?
there's no fairy tales at all...
why?
maybe this is the real world..
never open up to anyone... this might be the best protection

how come nobody sits with me?
how come nobody ask me to join them?
=(



never mind..i shall drown myself in the m&ms
die...

*looks at numbers and numbers of empty packets*

never mind...i goin running today anyway

shopping? i am bloody rich

being lame seems to be the "in" thing now
some people are born like that
its a gift
take it

hahahaaa....crazy

its sort of irritating now
and its makin me to dislike it even more
all i want to say is " stay out of my sight!"
can i please enjoy myself on 22nd april?
why am i feelin it this way?
everyone is pretending
what is behind that smile?
what are you laughing at?
fark
i dont even know what i am saying now

actually i am not that rich
why?
cause i ate bao for dinner..inside joke
lame

i need sleep...
sleepin at 3 plus is becoming a norm
but i hate it

oh just another sunday

my life is going upside down
illusions ... of which wonderful things you want them to happen, things that will go smoothly
just the way you want them to be..
we called them dreams
no matter how hard i tried
i cant seem to get near them

sorry est
i didnt mean to back out last minute
a million apologies

i'm feeling desperate

maybe like what est said..
there's always another year to repeat

i refuse to believe this
...
i dont know what to believe
i dont know who to believe

all i want is to be free
maybe i should just run away..
flee to another country or something

another sunday spent
i miss playing tony hawk

*smiles* ( pretend to be happy)
i still dont like netball

345am i am still awake?

just finished a late night conversation
makes me feel..secured for awhile
thanks for being a listening ear

trying to do an layout for the whole day
it makes me realized how disabled i am
i'm feeling doubtful about myself now

my days are numbered i think
choy!
okay touch wood

my eyebags are getting obvious
argh...

i am still afraid to sleep
i am still suffering from headaches

someone asked "what happened to you?"
well i'm still lookin for that answer..i'll get back to you asap

everyone is so busy with their own life
i should do the same too

fark this entry is gettin more and more depressed
i dun care
i'm off to sleep..( i'm trying)