Friday, April 02, 2004

last night i thought i was going to die
cause things just goes wrong...terribly wrong...
i simply hate myself when things goes out of control
beyond my control...
no..perhaps.. i shouldn't let this happen...

somehow i manage to survive ...
i have to...dont i?
my tears helped me through
i cant run away from mistakes...
my mistakes

i betrayed the trust given to me
i wouldnt say much
cause explanation wont help

it saddens me whenever we had to end our day like this
where have all the old days gone to?
i went home in tears
you went loaded with frustration
never felt such a failure before
never felt so sick before
i just need someone to be there....
to lie to me
tell me everything's gonna be alright





Tuesday, March 30, 2004

You have this friend since elementary and after college the both of
you never talk to each other or call each other anymore.
But she is someone really special to you, and you're someone very
special to her too..
5 years later you receive a phone call from her...
"Hi Michelle, I'll visit you" she said

"Hi, Leah, when?" you asked her

"Just wait for me" she replied....
It seems weird but you prepared for her coming anyway.
One rainy night you heard a knock on the door.

And you're surprised to see that it's your friend, Leah.
Losing touch for 5 yrs. is long so the both of you talked about
everything.

The both of you even went to your room upstairs.
Suddenly there's a blackout So the 2 of you talked in candle light.
Then the phone rang.....

"I'll just get the phone downstairs" you said since there's no phone
upstairs.

"No.... don't get it, we're in the middle of our girl talk" she said
"It might be important," you said
"okay if you say so, but promise me you'll be back.." she said.
So you promised her a million times that you'll be back.
Then you ran downstairs to answer the phone...

"Hello," you said
"Hi, is this Michelle?" the person in the other line asked
"yeah," you said wondering who is it...
"I called on behalf of Leah's family, they had a tragic accident and
her
parents are in the hospital right now..." he continued

"and Leah?" you asked forgetting that Leah is upstairs.

"She died.." he said, then he hanged up.
You slowly put the phone down and looked at the long stairs...
WOULD YOU GO BACK?
as you promised...

Sunday, March 28, 2004

this is such a farkin day
farkin irritatin demoralisin day
sigh...