feelin slightly demoralised now
i should be workin
or at least
work in the earlier holidays
mom's not really supportive of the things i'm doin now...
she thinks i'm just creating stress for myself
but then again, she isnt a very supportive person at all
oh well
i just dont want 3do to "die"
i'm just doin what i can now
i'm feelin less confident

somehow i need to get a job
after the vacations
at least i'm gettin money
i need to support myself
a packed schedule
will make me feel less lonely

i wanna make more friends!!
i want to add more colors to my life
i want...i want...i want..
oh ya
squid: i wanna go to the arts camp =)
there should be cute guys right....

stupid elson...since short entries make u sleep
i shall write more short ones...
hahahhaa...

hmm
decide to be less childish
(like people care)
i'm tryin ...i'm tryin
be or at least act more street smart
(i'm seriously not that blur you know!)
hmm i want the respect
and people will be lookin at me in a different way!
*muahahahhahah*
hey i'm serious
dun think many people takes me seriously( except glad...hehehehe)
but that's okay
time will help me to work this out
argh...
i'm outta here...
my naggin stamina has increased .......

farkin pissed with my pc now
it keeps opening all these ads
each time i close a window
it gives me system error message
wat the heck???
i cant go anywhere
when almost all links i click
goes to this stupid seach site
ARGH

i'm feelin stressed
why?
when i aint supposed to be
crap
thats the problem with me
being too busybody
and ends up feelin unappreciated
i'm startin to lose the direction
dont know when will i stop being childish
then i can handle disappontments easily
i wanna have another crazy girl's night soon...

made a wrong mistake last night
it saddens
and sort of angers me
cant be helped
its hard to find a person u can really confide in
oh well ...
forget it
hmmmm
i miss glad...
*sigh*

i'm totally broke...

somethin is botherin me...
umm...
dont know how to begin..
shit

adobe illustrator is killin me
hur hur
i'm learning...
*winks*
hope i wont let my master down

need to scream
becomin slight pissed at some people
more responsibilty
more punctuality
more committments
be a better role model ...
be more authoritative????
dont think things for granted...
if u wanna be treated like an adult, pls act like one
know wat? you are such a disappointment
seriously, i'm becomin more demoralised
oh well...
okay da fire's out..
for now
geez

Shit
A long, long time ago, they used to ship manure (containing largely feces) on boats around the mediterranian. Well, the cargo was always on the lowest deck. The problem was, the boats back then would be farely leaky, and water would get in. When water and manure mixed, it would produce a large amount of methane. Careless and unknowing crew members at night would carry torches, and if they went below deck with enough methane, the ship would explode. To solve this problem, they simply started shipping them above deck so any gas could go out into the atmosphere. To make sure this was done, manure-containers would be labeled with "S.H.I.T.". This of course, stands for "Ship High In Transit"

As for how it became a vulgar term for feces itself is beyond me