Saturday, June 25, 2005

Try this

The Real You

You've got great self-confidence and you're full of charm. Most guys who get to know you will be attracted to you. You are far from sweet and proper; your intriguing personality fascinates them. Most guys find it easy to fall for a girl like you.

You really care about other people's feelings and are quite serious about the issues that affect your life. You are sincere, and your concern for the well-being of others makes many people want to be your friend.


You strictly follow rules, and you expect other people to be the same as well. People can get tired of you easily, as you can make them feel a little guilty about themselves. You always make decisions on your own, and can be dismissive of other people's advice. You like to be the leader in groups, but can forget to be concerned about the people you are with.

Your peers think of you as a fun person, but sometimes you can be a little irresponsible. You can be somewhat childish, and can try to ignore the fact that you will one day need to really grow up and be a mature adult! Perhaps you could start reading good books; they might help you look at the world in a different light. You do want to be taken seriously, right?

Your boyfriend believes that you are a strong and independent person. Your confidence and cheerfulness make you an attractive person to be around, but sometimes you need to pay more attention to what other people, including your boyfriend, are thinking.

Friday, June 24, 2005

Vertical Horizon - I'm still here

Kinda hooked onto this song ...for now

I found the pieces in my hand
They were always there
It just took some time for me to understand
You gave me words I just can't say
So if nothing else
I'll just hold on while you drift away

Cause everything you wanted me to hide
Is everything that makes me feel alive

The cities grow the rivers flow
Where you are I'll never know
But I'm still here
If you were right and I was wrong
Why are you the one who's gone
And I'm still here

I'm still here

You've seen the ashes in my heart
You smile the widest when I cry inside and my insides blow apart
I try to wear another face
Just to make you proud
Just to make you put me in my place

But everything you wanted from me
Is everything that I could never be

The cities grow the rivers flow
Where you are I'll never know
But I'm still here
If you were right and I was wrong
Why are you the one who's gone
And I'm still here

Maybe tonight it's gonna be alright
I will get better
Maybe today it's gonna be okay
I will remember

I held the pieces of my soul
I was shattered
And I wanted you to come and make me whole
Then I saw you yesterday
But you didn't notice
You just walked away

Cause everything you wanted me to hide
Is everything that makes me feel alive

The cities grow the rivers flow
Where you are I'll never know
But I'm still here
If you were right and I was wrong
Why are you the one who's gone
And I'm still here

The lights go out the bridges burn
Once you go you can't return
But I'm still here
Remember how you used to say
I'd be the one to run away
But I'm still here

I'm still here

Thursday, June 23, 2005

i guess i'm falling sick soon
my headache is still here
i got alot of colourful butterflies in my stomach
my throat hurts

guess i got to forsake the camp
sigh

i just realized i got a briefing to attend on saturday
at ANG MO KIO
i got to return the library books
i got to clean the house
i got a date with shu hui

talk about Ang Mo Kio..
its pretty damn far from my place...
i went there
fewer than 5 times

There's swimming complex in Ang Mo Kio right?

then i'll meet shu hui in the evening..
hey girl..
Bu yao fang wo fei ji !

dont care
i'll still run tonight

i'm having bad bad bad headaches....
it seems like time is going way too slow today...
i'm feeling very very very sleepy...
i cant think properly........all i can think of is..my bed..
my blanket...
to laze and cuddle up ....
if only there's someone for me to hug..
to pinch and whack..and KICK
WEEEEE...
so cosy ! so fun !
never mind..eh i'm kidding okay
i still got my smelly doremon

i've been a good girl !
running every night after work
*grins*
so proud of myself..
*giggle*
only one disadvantage : my forever skinny brother will finish up ALL the food
luckily my mom is smart enough to keep some for me

i made a fool out of myself again
yea i know what you're thinking now
" wah mad u damn pathetic leh.."

Sometimes, you must learn to laugh at yourself
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so you wanna hear the joke or not?
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witch : can you call elson and ask him to fax the confirmation asap?
mad : huh elson? ELSON? u know him?
witch : what do you mean i know him? Rememberd yesterday he called ?
mad : ...elson called us? How come he got our number ? *BLUR FACE*
witch : OEI u still sleeping ar? Elson from singapore shipping association !!!
mad : ohhh......
witch : -_-""" GO CAll HIM NOW LAH
mad : *make funny faces behind her back*

you see, how was i supposed to know there's another elson in this world?
One is enough already
isnt it?

please mad
stop daydreaming

WAKE UP !!!

that is why being a girl can be so troublesome
you get emotionally drained

know what, squid
i rather wish the chasing part really comes true

okay i'm late
for bed time

movie or camp?
sigh.......

Wednesday, June 22, 2005

I feel like

the piece of fat meat sandwiched in between

which choice should i make?????

sigh.....


i am innocent...

Tuesday, June 21, 2005

I must be damn bored

what makes me say so?

this is my 2nd post for today already!

sigh.........

today is so quiet
i'm hungry already
...
i think i ought to go on a diet

class 95 is playing "silence is golden" now
feeling sort of contented
oh ..that reminds me to burn all the elvis' & beatles' songs tonight

playing eric clapton's tears in heaven now
....
a truly beautiful song indeed
sob* sob*

aiya i'm feeling extremely bored now lah
she keep insisting i should complete the touch typing exercise
she keep believing i can't touch type ! ( i just hate
wahahahahaha
whatever

i just realized one thing
*points to the left corner of the banner*
see the number 24?
i used to love this number alot alot alot alot ..*dreamy tone*
yes yes mad we get the drift
anyway i still do
thats why i didnt change my blogskin
besides it consist all my fave colours : blue , white, grey
wahahhahahaha

toshiba just called
big company wor
no wonder the witch is happy
siao
KNS

hahaha
i just love bad-mouthing her

yea i cant wait for saturday!
its gonna be a all girls night!

time for brunch..
cheerios!
i'll be back ! wahahahahhahahhahaa

Anyone interested?

The Milk Run - 10 km
3rd July Sunday - Youth Day
http://www.milkrun.sg/the-event-in-a-dash.html

Monday, June 20, 2005

By the way

Did i mention to you why i dislike mondays?
i will always have this same dream....for the bloody past 1 month !

i saw all my friends
and there is always this person i can never get to see his face
everyone i know appeared in the dream
like a never ending movie
with such an imperfect ending

no it didnt had an ending

i just woke up
few minutes before my alarm goes off

i got out of bed, feeling like shit
the past simply loves to haunt me isnt it?

had this sudden urge to change my blog address
( again??? )

www.madelyne.blogspot.com

eew...

nah forget it

yipee...
monday is over ....
in 11 minutes time

have a good week ahead peeps

i just got scolded again
she called me brainless
just because she dont like me placing the apple on the desk
she's afraid it might dirty her office

....
verbal abuse hor?

Oh its a monday

i cant think of a title
anyway
its a monday right?

was blog surfing just now
i got something to say
i also wanna go BBK !
actually
i wanna go vietnam..
done a lil research on the country.. not much interesting stuff
unless u want to find land mines...
LOL
no meaning ( steph's fav line )

i miss bangkok
the last time i went there was like .. 6 years ago?
i wanna to witness the beautiful fireworks displays under the full moon night again
it was so touching
i almost cried...
hahahhaha
silly me

it was after this trip rabia and i become best friends
we were eating lunch on the plane
i can still feel the wrenching heartache when she told me she's dating nicholas
my crush !!!!
she knew i liked him ALOT
*HMMP*
almost stabbed her with the fork
MUAHHAHAHHAHHAHAHAHA

sigh
she is now "missing"
but i'll know she will appear soon
we been playing hide and seek since sec 4

felt sort of demoralised today
the wicked witch was being a lil nice ..for today
anyway i listen to her naggin as another form of "music"
but i'm not satisfied with myself
not satisfied with my pace of learning!
i ought to be able to do more things!
i ought to be better!

i keep telling myself i need to do this and this and that during the weekends
but i got so lazy and didnt complete my "things to do" list
how can i improve and excel if i dont strive hard????
ARGH
i'm such a letdown to myself
i get tired and lethagic easily ..especially in the office
once i'm out ...i can go running !
i think something's wrong with me..
i cant think properly..unable to give my full concentration
i dont feel charged up in the morning.. migraines will come instead
my eyes wandered around and many funny ideas just came into my mind
sometimes they are so funny i giggled out
and i got a scolding for not being paying attention, not using my brain

maybe there's something wrong with my diet? my sleep?
i dont exercise enough?

i ate my veggies daily
i ate my fruits daily
i run every other day.. swim every saturday..
i drink milk and 1.5 litre of water everyday

but
i'm NOT functioning like what a 20 year old YOUNG ENEGERTIC YOUTH should !
.....

sigh
maybe
cant be brain tumor or something right?
CHOY
*toucccchhhhh wood*

oh did i mention about the PCK muscial?
it an enjoyable muscial ..with a great band
a good meaure of good english and equal measure of singlish cum hokkien, mandarin, malay..and whatever lah
as usual, most singaporeans dont know how to tell time
okay fine im not a punctual person either...but at least
i dont tell lil kids its alright to be just 10 minutes late..its no bg deal
SET A GOOD EXAMPLE TO YOUR KIDS
sigh.... to think this lady was wearing prada shoes..carrying LV bag
what a misfortunate

its a good thing that HL and i managed to squeeze into the bus
i would scream at those people
They just refuse to move in ......
there's a ghost back there or you're just too lazy to even move yourself ????

Sunday, June 19, 2005

Every sunday morning

i got to yell at my dogs
to get them out of my room

i dont understand why
its only happens on sundays

okay so i finally know the swimming instructor's name
Francis Tay
"it's waterproof"
he said that so cheekily as he handed me his namecard
SO?
eh hello i am in the pool??? u wan me to get up and put it inside my bag?

i was feeling pretty uneasy when he taught me the correct strokes for swimming freestyle
alot of people were noticing us
..i just got scared !!!!!
what the fiak
thankfully, he left for another class
he told me to call him
PUI ! MY FOOT

i guessed i swim quite alot....
i was taking a breather when this GEEKY looking guy came to me
" you're quite a good swimmer you know"
"nah..not really. i'm a slow swimmer"
i looked away, plainly to show him i am not interested to continue the conversation with him
for each question he asked, i returned a short reply
but he just dont give up.........a very stubborn annoying writer.....
i told him i want to continue my swim

at 3.15pm
another underaged cutie came up to me and say hi
5 minutes later
i decided to go home

what's wrong with me??????????

watched HMC ( Howl's moving castle) last night
ohh..i loved it
think i gonna watch it again later

oh ..
its father's day
=)