i finally able to fully appreciate this song...

"And there's a danger in loving somebody too much,
and it's sad when you know it's your heart they can't touch.
There's a reason why people don't stay who they are.
Baby, sometimes, love just ain't enough."

had a run today
as usual, its terrific
the only time i can feel good
and happy

what is it like to fall in love?
i'll forgot how it feels like
this feeling is missing now

shout Out :
yes i was angry when you go off
yes i was utterly disappointed when u just let me go like that
yes i had a bad day
yes i am selfish
yes i hate myself

now back to BA
....
have a great weekend...
i cant seem to get one now...

here's my new friend..
i called him mr weasel.. M.W for short
Mad: " say hi mr weasel "
M.W : hello ....*blushes*
mad: dont be shy..say something about yourself
M.W : erm erm...... erm...
mad : okay never mind..hahhahhaa
M.W : * blushes*

so from now on, M.W will sits with me at my desktop...
telling me stories... laughin with me over corny stuff...
isnt this neat??
yes yes? hahahahhaa
M.W will be my constant reminder...
about the day he and his 8 other friends came into my life
about the hundreds and hundreds of happy things happened before
about how grateful i should be ...able to breathe the morning air everyday

finally its over...
mixed feelings inside me..
its so sick...i just wanna puke
funny isnt it?
i almost lost hope
but somehow i still managed to scrap thru'
thanks to everyone =)

learned new lessons about life in the hard way

lesson #01
learning to work together isnt an easy job ..esp lazy people
learning to work with 5-6 people...erm.. now thats a A-rank mission

lesson #02
communication communication..dont try telephathy ..doesnt works

lesson#03
respect respect...isn this one of the basics? apparently...some dont have

lesson #04
its good to be helpful..but please .. dont worsen the situation

lesson #05
no spoon-feeding services here.. learn to get things done yourself

suppose to meet glad today
but something cropped up...
i guess i should have go somewhere else instead
have some quiet time at the library and enjoy coffee?
perhaps it's about time for me to find out the purpose of my existence

i miss laughing..
i wanna stop crying
thats not me at all..
i hate the way i am now
i really miss having a good friend around
anyone there?