maybe i'm lucky
maybe i'm n0t....
maybe i just feel lucky thats all..........haha
time seems t0 pass by Bery Very sl0wly t0day......but the pe0ple are nice t0day.....hehe....
the nurse fr0m the fertility department gave me 2 tao sa biscuits .....hehe......*giggles* then the lady fr0m the st0ck dept came d0wn n gave me kit kat..........hehe....
they said i need t0 eat......-_-""
haha....i take that as a c0mpliment ba.........L0lz.....

havent watch my naruto yet........argh......goin crazy.......
havent gone f0r a swim f0r b0ut 3 days....argh.....goin crazy..........
havent g0 runnin f0r c0untless of days....ARGH.......i'm l0st........

i'm g0in thr0ugh s0mething that is very ....erm.....complicated...i dun0
i'm feelin s0methin that is very.......erm...mixed up?...beats me.........
i'm drivin myself crazy by imaginin t00 much stuff......b0ut what? :) i aint tellin
at least for sure i wun write it here....hahah

3do c0min cl0ser........i feel the pressure c0min cl0ser....*tries to push it away* but unsuccessful..........very scared.......
and happy.......can see my frenz again liao...haha...but still scare.....so many paperworks...so many numbers....sigh......

my dad says he's gonna throw my stuffed toys away~~ no ~~ cannot~~ all my faves....contains all my childhood tears and laughters......and also many dust..haha
00ps.....l0w battery already...muz type faster......hmmm....wat else to say ......??? n0 idea......hahha.......

an0ther freakin night..........
an0ther freakin h0mosapien.........in my h0use
an0ther freakin m00d i am in n0w........
when i'm waitin f0r this pers0n t0 send me the file.....
and he tells me " d0 it t0m0rr0w ba"
i wanna yell " N0 I WANT IT NOW~ " but i didnt.........

this freakin br0ther 0f mine thr0win Sarcarstic w0rds at me.......and i'm sittin here ....d0in n0thin....but wait
am i that sane? n0..nah.......i'm n0t that a g00d pers0n.....just blame 0n myself t0 be s0000 dumb.......if 0ne day sh0uld i l0se my c00l
again.... i will take this pers0n t0 be a punchin bag.......

## depressi0n day 10th June
i wanna be naughty......n0pe...naughtier....
i wanna stay 0ut late all night....dun g0 h0me.....
i wanna g0 clubbin and get crazy like my friends.......
i wanna st0p being so feD UP with my grades..........
i wanna st0p being sensitive ......nice ..(erm nice arh......maybe n0t.....)
i wanna st0p carryin resp0nsibilites.....
i wanna g0 f0r tests with0ut feelin guilty just beC0z i din sTudy.........
i wanna haF a cl0se fren~~ a galFren wh0m i can 'girl-talk ' with.....n0t 0ne wh0 iz always disappearin.....-_-"" haha......

aM i crazy?? maybe i am....my name is mad mah........haha.......that ben als0 named me as madw0men *sulk*

i wanna Haf a n0rmal br0ther..........he's drivin me crazy.....n0w he's standin behind me...i dun wanna g0 near him...i hate talkin t0 him...
he's readin what i'm typin n0w....haha..that feakin ASSSH0le.......i dun haf t0 wait l0ng t0 give him an0ther punch ...this time its just n0t 0n the m0uth
0nly....hey...i din watch th0se acti0n m0vies f0r n0thin h0r......yuk yuk

i'm havin d0ubts in what i can d0.....i dun have any thing i am g00d at.........n0 talents...sighz.....
li0nel=very g00d at y0-y0....n0 kiddin...
squid=another b0rn t0 be entertainer....=)
cynwell= sp0re very 0wn magician~~ but u cann0t play card games with him ....
ber= 0ur sadistic queen.....0s0 a blur 0ne....
riC= very g00d with hair affairs....haha....and c0l0rs t0o...

me? n0pe.... sigh...*huh ? n0 lah mad...u are g00d to0...* oh yea g00d at what?* eh...erm...scratch head oh u are good for being bullied l0r..* -_-"""""""" 0h ...thankz al0t then...
an0ther thing t0 add 0n t0 " small and big weeds 0f my life"
this is definitely an unrem0vable weed.....

okie it w0rks n0w......haha

eh how come da name wont change? funny......

this feelin has been naggin me since i came back from chalet ...now i'm g0nna say it 0ut
..my grades succcckkkssss.....big time....
no, i'm not goin to reveal my grades....whu wuld tell her lousy marks 0nLine...sigh
s0 disapp0inted with my ...psp2 marks...my 0s to0...evp ? eh....c0unt myself lucky .....t0 pass
i'm kinda angry at myself...no not kinda....i think its real angry ......* can see sm0ke c0min 0ut 0f mui ears*
n0 lah .......sigh...dun0 wat t0 d0......

weeds ....wat are they? i called them life energy drainers.....haha....these weeds are just suckin 0ut 0ur energy
fr0m 0ur daily lives....they are little unhappy things in 0ur life h0wever, s0metimes we been b0thered by these weeds we g0t so cranky , missin 0ut the meanin and j0y
fr0m each day...haha..
hmm....still c0nfusin? eh...haha..s0 s0rry.....tell u my weeds ba...then u kn0w what i'm t0kin b0ut...

small & big weeds 0f my life:
* cant find time to exercise
* feel very inproductive everyday
* no time to tidy my r00m
* my girlfren havent return my call
* cant achieve my g0als
* dun0 what t0 d0 f0r my duty (3d0 camp)
* hardly meet my frenz n0w(no 0ne seems to n0tice...*sob sob* no message no calls fr0m them)
* i feel that i dun exists at ALL.........read ab0ve
* never learn s0mething useful durin the vacati0n
* feel i gettin fatter
* my girlfren is different n0w...but i still l0ve her~~

erm...thats all liao....i think...at least i think thats en0ugh f0r me to handle...
weeds they accumulate as time goes by...s0 we muz learn to get rid 0f them ....with time and effort....(heck what am i t0kin b0ut....watever ba......) s0 i guess i haf to start right n0w~~ to sh0rten my list 0f weeds ba........

i s0und so fake.......sigh......sh0rten my list of weeds...easier said than d0ne.....

father's Day......is erm......i f0rget......neber mind...just l00k ar0und in da sh0ppin mall...then i'll will kn0w....hm...t0day's t00 late t0 g0 swimmin...dun0 why i was so tired last night....haha...

*yesterDay's st0ry*
i'm pr0ud 0f myself yesterday....cuz i din l0se my temper ...hahah...despite the indian worker stay at the end of the carpark and sm0ked wh0le day....despite the next chinese guy (he's als0 an0ther superb slacker) came and t0ld me he isnt supp0sed t0 be at the c0unter with me th0ugh da schedule on the table says s0....but in da end he did stayed 0n...that weaklin...i just said i called and ask the co-0rdinater to help me see if there's 0ther staff....haha....cuz the co-0rdinater is his b0ss....* evil Grin*
but what makes it maddenin is that he just sit and d0 n0thin.....while i was takin the temperature and givin the sticker.....he was actually arrangin the stuff on da table and then sit d0wn........i ask him t0 get 0ut and d0 his traffic j0b......luckily my partner came back fr0m her dinner, she's a nice lady i guess...at least n0 misunderstandin ..haha... when she finally came back...i was s0 happy....i can finally g0 t0 da ladies lia0...haha..0n my way back... i went t0 the l0bby t0 refill my b0ttle...and i saw the chinese guy watchin tv.........*evil side of mad arises...feelin angry* walks t0wards the water c00ler....ign0ring him....the stupid fella must had feel nerv0us...tried t0 talk t0 me..."eh..s0 when u startin sch00l huh? july arh?" *evil madelyne walks right pass him * "yea" i answered with my back facin him.....wasteful t0 talk t0 a pers0n like him.........

*end of yesterDay's st0ry*

my head is feelin heavy again......damn....its been like this since yesterdaY aftern00n.......i need an0ther panad0l.....i think i'm a panad0l addict ...yesh...again...
the GSS ....i wanna get many stuff...m0stly are sp0rts i guess....haha....i think g0in to ask my c0usin t0 get me a PS2....as a hse warmin gift...f0r me 0nly whahaha.....okie...i think ask my dad first...he g0t c0nnecti0ns mah....wahaha.....


=sh0ppin list =
runnin shorts - nike
t-shirts - nike (grins)
bag...big one...for 3d0
rollerblades
ankle socks...haha
swimwear...
go c0lor my hair
sandals
slippers
jeans
er...think thats all ba...maybe there's m0re

=stuff to get / find =
ph0t0frames
wrappin papers
glass b0ttles
useless cds
tiles (maybe)
glass paints
carpets...(very exp man..maybe get those plain rugs)
leaves
sp0nge

erm...thats all for now
*winks*