Thursday, March 18, 2004

no matter how much i try
i always feel like a shit at the end of the day
i always make this mistake
i cant feel angry..i cant show it
no matter what
i must put on a smile

felt very sad when i saw my dad
suddenly he looked so old
he was in so much pain
all i can do is to hold his hand

i wanna hear a voice
i need a simple favour from him
but he was busy..
he didnt hear the plead in my voice

back to assignments
perhaps i should stop this blog
its so depressing anyway

Wednesday, March 17, 2004

miss my dad
called him the moment i reached home
poor daddy
cant eat anything before the op
gonna buy him some nice food
to cheer him up tomorrow

slept all the way to queensway
while waiting for bus
i looked..at everything
things didnt change much
memories always makes them look the same..haha
somehow..


hmm meeting ..meeting..wow
hunger hunger...
cravings for chocolate...

rushing everything..
why did i overl00ked so many stuff...
this shouldnt be happening at all...
darn it..
whats up with me...
i really seri0usly hate myself...sometimes..

i miss exercising...
i miss sleeping...
haha..

Tuesday, March 16, 2004

why do i always feel like a piece of shit at the end of the day?
...maybe because i am..
fark...
mad.. dont be an idiot..
stop demandin so much..
okay...

why cant i join in the meeting...
hmmp*
fine whatever...
used to it anyway....*roll eyes*
i shall do my isdt...
after this... hehe

beng is so so so so so...argh...
i think he's finding his life too boring..
someone perhaps... gave him a bone or something

BA assignment is coming...
ISDT is due this friday
LS is due this friday...

havin headaches nowadays
damn damn

Sunday, March 14, 2004

feelin crappy in the morning..
every comment feels like a slap to me
i wondered what did i do..
shit... am i thinkin too much?
i am doubting myself
again..
so what else is new?
elson koo...u owe me one...

finally hand up PM ..
next is ISDT..
many stuff needs to be done...
i think ..
i need more sleep

b0ught a bag at bugis
hmm...a good bargain i guess
*grins* at least i'm g0od at bargaining..buahhaha

need to eat out less 0ften
missed m0m's cookin..
she made japanese curry today
yum yum..to0 bad i already eaten

i wanna swim
i wanna run
i wanna cycle
....
but first..
let me get some sleep...