i cant sleep ..... i'm so tired but i still cant sleep....what a day.....
stomach felt s0 empty....duhz...0f c0urse i d0....cuz i 0nly had erm..what d0 ya call that...rice + p0rk with th0se dark sauce..haha whatever ... and an ice cream f0r dinner....
decided t0 get up and get a glass 0f milk, 0n my lappy and surt the net~~
see my classmates....n0w havin a conversati0n with them...luckily they are still ar0und...
t0day a few 0f them stayed back with me to help with my enr0lment...thankz pe0ple~~
finally finished callin all da students ....s0me 0f the calls cant get thr0ugh ..s0me ...waitin f0r their replies..think i'll ask them again t0m0rrow....
alica's back~~ haha....t00 bad she leavin f0r laselle....so jeal0us ...yesh~~ i feel s0 jeal0us~~
g0nna miss her...*sad*
thinkin 0f plannin a farewell dinner f0r her....
speakin 0f this leds t0 an0ther thing, s0mething i rather dun t0k ab0ut.....
cuz it will makes me lo0k immature and silly
i just take it easy and let it g0 easy....
maybe thats why my friends dun take me seri0usly....
th0ugh this feelin hurtz me
i'm g0tten used t0 it....and sick 0f it....
:) but i'm startin t0 accept my classmates...
gettin better with them after the chalet ...hahha
thats a g00d thing ba i guess? *grins*
always l00k oN the briGht side 0f LifE~~

been thinkin al0t lately...been d0in many stuff lately
f0r the first time, i felt s0 useFuL~~ haha....
i wan 3d0 to be better than last year~~
why? cuz i'm in it mah.........
besides ...hm..dun think i will say it 0ut here
haha...
wanna d0 my best in what i can help 0ut with
cuz i din d0 well as a treasurer....makin it up n0w...
li0nel u said i did quite al0t of w0rk...
really i dun think s0....this is what i can d0....this is what i will d0...
yup, muz thank ben f0r helpin me with th0se numbers ....

0ne guy fr0m the list asks me 0ut f0r a m0vie ...haha
maybe i'll g0...whu kn0ws? i leave t0 fate t0 arrange everything f0r me
think i sh0uld start g0in 0ut ...i mean dating..
at least u g0t s0mething t0 smile ab0ut...
daydream ab0ut.......*grins*

thinkin al0t 0f things tonight.....
h0w everything g0es...
h0w scho0l will be like in future...
h0w will my studies be....
h0w 3d0 will be...
h0w sh0uld i d0 with all th0se figures.....

every0ne's asleep~~
man.....s0 l0nely.....
sigh....think i g0in t0 be sick.....
sick 0f everythin
sick 0f w0nderin
sick 0f drivin myself crazy
makin any sense here?
cents will be s0methin i prefer
yes...i think i am sick...
headache and abit of butterfilies in the st0mach.....

can g0 on writin till the m0rnin
mayb then i can make myself t0 sleep
thats n0t t00 bad isnt it? haha

went cyclin 0n thurs
l0ng time since i did that
feelin is s0 g0od...i think i'm addicted again
haha....
tried to cycle t0 sch0ol ...make a wr0ng turn at the SIM
in the end end up back at c0rnonati0n road......
t00pid me........
t0morr0w g0in to cycle again...
that is if i can wake up in time....
g0tta g0 pass lionel the student list....millenia walk....
g0in to KL 0n 22th~~ that is erm...sunday~~
wow...cant wait....
i need a getaway....
fast...
everythin seems t0 be in a rush...
3do c0min...very farked up ....*oops..bad w0rd*
ben kept sayin still g0t many things t0 be d0ne
suddenly feel s0 guilty....am i being a burden?
*shake head* no no...am i ?
just d0 what i can ba....
*silence*

h0w many m0re can i write?
l0ts m0re...haha...later i'll d0 a word c0unt...

saw the pics of alicia at aust...
she l0oked s0 happy
with that kind of " i'm in love " happiness 0n her face
when will it be my turn?
i'm still waitin ....
i'm still imaginin....
a pers0n to be there for you ....
0ne that can give g00d massages...
let me try a few punches on him ....
teach me a few tricks....
chide me wen i d0 s0methin wr0ng
trust me in whatever i d0
mature en0ugh to f0r me t0 trust him...
en0ugh f0r him t0 trust me...haha
l0ves life ...l0ve himself

*grins*


wah this p0st...will be the l0ngest 0ne ever......hahhaa
damn.....this headache is killin me....
helpz....panad0L extra........
shit...i'm still hungry....

suddenly got the urge to write
..again rubbish so dun mind me
:)

a mixture of sadness and confusion
at the end comes with a little hope
am i makin sense here? words dont make sense
actions do....
really i'm thinkin too much..i need to get away

erm...duno what am i writin lah.....so again dun mind me...

i'm walkin away
i'm scared to see
the outcome of everything
the feelings to let go
its not the time
maybe i never will
maybe i dun even care
listen to my heart
you see the story
see me through my eyes
and i'll tell you more

A pity beyond all telling Is hid in the heart of love.
W.B. Yeats

go library or runnin.......??
:) go library then i walk home ........hahahahha
i need some time al0ne........*ouch* headache....

.....just had my lunch......
nothin to do.....nothin to see
nothin to talk ...nothin to feel.....
orientation day for freshies..
simply not my day
now in the cs room...ben is doin his own stuff...*peeps* duno lah....can 0nly hear clickin sounds...his head is d0wn n0w...sleepin lah.~~~
me als0 very tired....my face is still kinda red...
t0day g0 runnin again be...haha....
been havin headaches again...think n0t en0ugh sleep ba...maybe n0t en0ugh 0xygen in the brain..thats why s0 stupid....that muz be the reas0n....
ben's lappy playin all these nice s0ngs...i like them...always g0 hmv there and listen...hahaa
great minds think alike~~ hahhahaha
suddenly g0t many things t0 write....cuz i think ..i just need to talk...no i mean just write
ooh..this s0ng...its like tellin my story
But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be...me

:) end of my st0ry
thank you~~ hahaha

wish i can take more IS electives......
days to 3do become lesser ...
imagination become wilder
my neck is feelin tighter...haha wat am i sayin
-_____-"""

last night spent 1 and a half hour to call the students...only manage to get 5 people...wat a failure
so many funny names...dun0 h0w to pr0n0unce ...n0t my fault mah.........=p
neber mind...later try again
hahahha..Never give up~

i'm feelin sleepy....i'm feelin sick
sick in the head
hahha....
derrick is back~~ hehe finally got s0me..erm..n0ise ...

yesterday swim...n0t much ..then i ruN....
came h0me...suddenly g0t this urge t0 fix my bike....
clean my bike...bring it d0wn t0 the uncle d0wnstairs...
hehe then he said will fox f0r me...hahahahhaha
then can g0 cycle....whahhaah
but i'm still scared t0 cycle 0n the r0ad......

o0ps~~ i g00ta g0..make ph0ne calls make ph0ne calls~~
but 1st find andy....
adios~
*grins*
mus always smile ~~ hahhahaha

spinnin spinnn and spinnin ...help help ~ all the electives are spinnin in my mind
.......-_-"" e-commerce interface design or web mastering...
skills i leant in ECID :
photoshop 6
flash Mx
dreamweaver Mx
hm..whats ECID about? haha let me tell u ba...hahahh...*crazy*
in short , i 'll be learnin how to do those e commerce websites lor.....like amazon..yahoo...aiyo t00pid arh u ..ahahah..n0t funny...-_-""


skills i learnt in WB
hmm...client sided programmin...web page authorin ...web security ...ASP.net....
ARGH~~ headache headache........heck care arh
im takin ECID

hungry hungry im famished
..haha stories stories many to tell
but first...lunch......or should i say breakfast.....hahaha

my eyes are heavy n0w....
my hands are typing n0n-st0p.....
i keep thinkin n0n-st0p...b0ut wat...ahhaha
*grins*

i wanna get a digi cam~~ it will be my fave thing~~
i'll take it anywhere with me~~ i mean anywhere~~
i take pictures as i g0....
take pictures 0f my fave places.... the art museum...CHIJ chimes........swiss0tel....esplanade...merlion....
whahahah.....n0w glad's handph0ne has all these pics........whahahahha
he betta dun delete them 0ff.....-_-""

zzz.....i sh0uld be sleepin n0w...but...watever...i'm g0in s00n.....
i miss my magzine......sigh.....
will be away fr0m 22th t0 25th...hahahaha * why?* i g0in t0 KL mah....hahahha
read the few p0sts back....ba....

had dinner with li0nel , ben , derrick and squid....haha....what did we have? Prata~~ at clementi there l0r..haha...the meetin is s0 miserable....less than 10 turned up.....haiz....
while i was talkin t0 li0nel , i th0ught i saw my ex b0yfren ....he looked s0 like him.....haha
but his hair was different ...phew~ Lolz...... =p

hmm...cant seem to w0rk......this t00pid singtel ideaz thingy.....h0w c0me my fren said n0 need t0 pay anything......n0w this sms came t0 me ...askin me t0 ch00se the price plan~~ argh~~

t0m0rr0w g0tta g0 back t0 school......sigh.....cant wait for this t0 be 0ver........its really causin me t0 l0se my beauty sleep manz....ahahhaa
t0day is already 0ne of my m0st b0ringgggggg day......sit f0r 4 h0urs.......starin ....and d0in n0thin....-_-"" n0t a wise way to spent my m0rnin ya kn0w......

i still feel very mixed....haha....and sad i think.....
i dun think it will w0rk out.....dun think it will be g00d news.....
*dun understand wat i'm talkin bout? ...g00d.....*
haha.......glad u kn0w what i'm sayin or not....? haha...see of 0ur telepathy still w0rks or n0t.....hahahah
hmm..this song...i kinda like this......by this guy...frankie j...think so ba..."dun wanna try" .....i like the lyrics....
haha.....gettin abit t00 sentimental n0w....haha...the night is kinda c0ld t0night....haha ...with my fave pill0w.....*yawn* 0ff to dreamland~~
*grinz* g00d night

12:06 AM 6/16/2003 saturday
i'm listenin to this song.....erm..forgot the name...haha...0ne 0f the slamdunk endin s0ng....i'm really crazy b0ut manga....
listenin to this s0ng reminds me 0f many stuff...haha ...reminds me 0f basketball...reminds me 0f ...haha...glad if y0u're readin this...u kn0w wat i'm talkin b0ut ba...hahaha :p
i was in the bus 186 when the bus st0pped at the junction 0uside the present fairfield methodist sec sch....then i saw s0me students standin at the 4th fl00r.....i was standin at the same sp0t b0ut....erm... 2 years ag0? haha.....
remembered chattin with my frenz 0ver there whenever teacher isnt ar0und...
remembered watchin my crush my ab0ve after assembly....cuz my class's the 2nd t0 return mah......then g0t n0thin t0 d0...always g0 0utside and see...haha....
remembered ...hm..remember all th0se sec0ndary sch00l mem0ries.......sigh

ahahha...change to an0ther t0pic..
hehe...stopped w0rk lia0...dun0 why ....suddenly felt very l0st and free.......haha
i think i g0nna miss the pe0ple there....wish them all the best...:)
well n0w it kinda 0pens my eyes ....haha...see all s0rts 0f pe0ple...see all s0rts 0f attitude....see all s0rts of names...haha

ooh...i l0ve this s0ng...haha...li0nel g0t it f0r me...ahhaha
its the s0ng by black eyed peas feat. justin timberlake...."where is the love"
erm..the lyrics...g0in to get them s00n....hehe

i met this little girl ...her name is tan bee hong...and she's s00 adorable i tell ya....
*mad arrangin the stuff on the table*
"hello~~ "
*mad turns and see ...nob0dy....sounds like fr0m ab0ve ...l0oks up...see a little girl"
mad : hell0 *smiles* whats ur name?
girl : bee hong ~~ *giggles*
mad : orh....my name is madelyne
bee hong : then wats that her name? * p0intin t0 the lady at the visit0r pass c0unter*
lady: my name is nellie
bee hong : u wan c00kies? i give u ~~
nellie & mad : no its okay thank you
mad : bee hong u wan a ribbon? i give u this pink ribb0n
bee h0ng : okay hehe..thank you
nellie : why are u here ? u seein a doct0r 0r visitin s0meone?
bee hong: i visitin my baby~~*pauses awhile* my auntie's baby~~
orh.....haha wat a smart gal
just then my dad walks in and sits down with us
nellie : ur baby arh?
bee hong : no no..i so small ...my st0mach where g0t baby~~
then we all burst 0ut laughin ..aww...kids...
bee h0ng : wait i c0me and give u c00kies
* bee hong comes d0wn from the delifrance*
bee hong: nah~ i give u 3....each 0ne take three...give me ur hand...
wah ...this kid...really not afraid 0f strangers ...haha
the rest of the conversation turns out to be very silly ...hahah...
i end up playin sicssors paper st0ne with her..ahhaa

conclusion : really a nice way to end the evening..haha

its full m00n t0night~~
pe0ple start screamin~~
every0ne gets wild~~
all the devils are 0ut...
all the angels turn insane...
mad is talkin rubbish
hahahhaha......

i just dun wan st0p writin....haha...th0ugh i'm writin n0thin but nonsenses....haha s0 what else is new....:P

As i laid me back to sleep
i saw the past walked past me
the stories i wrote in my life
the lies i tried to live in
sleepin to dream bout the future
i saw my fairytale i saw my star
a brand new day
a step closer
do i believe in these?
i hope t0 believe....i believe to h0pe...

*this is not a song...(maybe...)
this is not a poem
this are just my thoughts
these are what i feel
so here i am writing them *

s0me stories st0pped with0ut an endin
s0me st0ries perhaps....doesnt have a startin after all
everyone waits f0r their ideal st0ry...
an inn0cent startin ...t0 a sweet endin
a everyday colleague ....to a lifetime's partner
a enemy ...to a crush
a silly crush....to a sweet love


haha....duno h0w t0 continue liao lah.....
the m00d is g0ne....hahahhaa
good nite every0ne
love ya *muack*

*yawn* not enuff sleep lately....
the less Sleep i have........the m0re i l0ve t0 sleep.......haha....t00pid...wat are u talkin b0ut...haha...
realised i g0t many things t0 d0....
16th t0 18th....i g0t this cca thingy g0in 0n..dun ask me wats that...i als0 g0t n0 idea....my class rep sign me up already...wanna kill him arh...
g0t meetin 0n 16th t00....ben havent set da time & venue.....
18th...meetin shu Hui t0 g0 sh0pping....
promise to go 0ut with glad....
22th t0 25....mum ask me t0 g0 KL ....
Argh~~ everything clashes~~
help me plez~~ s0meb0dy.....bleh........

feelin sleep derprived .....feelin very tired...s0 i decided n0t t0 g0 swimmin...okay 0kay...i'm lazY...haha....
ate n0thin but ice-cream in da m0rnin..haha...my mum said next time dun buy me ch0c0late ice-cream lia0.... but i kn0w she wun hahahhaha
o0ps ..f0rg0t t0 take my vitamins C.....haha...go take n0w.....
h0use s0 quiet.....0nly my d0g is disturbin the hamsters....then i haf t0 yeLL at him again...sigh...
g0t my pay lia0 ...wah finally.....can g0 shoppin lia0....whahahahhaha..but als0 need t0 save up s0me....
ben keep pesterin me t0 buy a bike.......then ps2......* shout0ut to ben*" U Sia0 arh~~ " hehehe....but i'm c0nsiderin
i wanna learn art....m0re b0ut it...esp b0ut th0se interi0r designs....hm...maybe g0 library find m0re stuff b0ut it....
last night chatted with few 0f my classmaTes....1st time arh.....had a c0nversti0n ....find it very nice...we sh0uld d0 that m0re 0ften...
0h....that reminds me....wed 18th....haf t0 watch m0vie with my class...think its an evening sh0w....
maybe i g0 and learn s0me jutsu...whahah i watch t00 much narut0 lia0.....
speakin 0f japan....last night this jap pers0n came and chat with me...0n icq...
studyin medicine...at toky0 uni~~ wah.... s0unds s0..erm...smart i guess...
very excited b0ut the 3d0.....but the figures are frightening... erm..haha..*nerv0us laugh*

o0ps...so late lia0...g0tta g0 bathe....
heehe..... take care every0ne...ahaha
*gives kisses everywHere* hahahahah....*hugz*