Thursday, September 18, 2003

had a busy day t0day...
met an0ther lady fr0m da company ...her name is jaslyn..kinda like her
zhenyang is a nice guy..we talked at the c0ffee sh0p..haha

reached h0me at bout 10 pluz...
kinda nerv0us bout t0m0rr0w's french test..
and there's AF test as well...what the heck..

g0tta rush ECID and erm..the comin o0p assignment next week..
g0tta g0 for trainin as well..
shit....

s0mething pissed me 0ff this late aftern00n
anyway its just a miscommunicati0n pr0blem...

t0 yashi : thanks jie, really appreciate it... u take care too okie..
You been busier than me...
*hugz* love ya

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cs room n0w is kinda cramped...
pe0ple are busy d0in their Wm..
me ? busy learning mui french..sigh
i g0t t0 pass it ..g00d..
have t0 finish pom assignment by t0m0rr0w ...i h0pe...
next week is assignment week ..dun wan last minute w0rk..
haha...
already 3pm...having NF class n0w...
g0tta run..
its an0ther l0ng day.....

----photo difference

Wednesday, September 17, 2003

just reached h0me..bef0re 11.30pm~
thats erm..g00d news..

finally meet my manager..his name is zhenyang
had a chat with him..and kn0w more bout whats g0in 0n...
hmm...t0m0rr0w meetin him again..

al0t 0f things t0 d0 n0w..hmm g0 update my schedule...
dun really g0t time t0 w0rkout..damn it..

oh yea...pe0ple remember t0 g0 ya sets..hahhaa..

feelin very farked up n0w...yea i used a vulgar w0rd.s0 what..
maybe t0m0rr0w u see me murderin s0me0ne...

the last thing i wan to hear is an0ther sarscam remark....
and i really ....dun like my mum d0in that....

perhaps its because 0f my parents ..ESP my MUm
i never seem to have a str0ng c0nfidence in myself
my hyper-critical mum....u can count on her to give u s0me bitterness after u receive
praise...
*ouch* ...it sure hurts...
and that is the reason why i can never tell her things
well i d0 tell her stuff...but she cant have my trust..cuz her " pattern" ..i kn0w her t00 well
d0 i sound mean?
its a fact..and yea... facts are always mean and cruel...
but all thanks t0 her...i learn t0 be independent ...and str0ng..
sh0uld i be grateful t0 her?
yea maybe s0meday i will...
cause it really hurts t0 learn it this way........
am i talkin rubbish?
yea i am...i am talkin to myself...
and its not the right time...
g0t t0 d0 my practicals....

*looks at time*
n0t bad...all these writing takes me 0nly 5 mins...c0ol
hahhaa......

" i am STRONG*

Tuesday, September 16, 2003

i goin to have a headache again...soon i know i will have...why? hahaha
this is a very busy week..busy with the m0ving..
need t0 go f0r the training ..erm... this j0b recommendation by my fren..me really interested in it..
but i cant find the time
having sub comm interviews this week...

assignments and tests :
pom = 1 assigment, 1 morecoming up, final test comin up as well
AF= a report t0 write on raiders of the lost ark...izzit? indiana jones lah..
ECID = due to be hand in by 0ct 10...
o0p assigment= next week coming
Db= in the next 2 weeks
french...= 0h i miss da test....
-_-"

what t0 do...

JANUARY: Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Homely person. Loyal. Needs to improve social abilities. Easily jealous. Very Stubborn.

FEBRUARY: Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Showing anger easily. Dislike unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp.. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Learns to show emotions.

MARCH: Attractive personality Affectionate Shy and reserved.. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others.. Loves to serve others. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others. Revengeful. Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves travelling. Loves attention. Hasty decisions in choosing partners.Loves home decors. Musically talented. Loves special things. Moody.

APRIL: Active and dynamic. Decisive and haste but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling. Friendly and solves people's problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Emotional. Aggressive. Hasty. Good memory. Moving. Motivate oneself and the others. Sickness usually of the head and chest.

MAY: Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts.. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention.. Deep feelings Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves travelling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirit.. Spendthrift.

JUNE: Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by kindness.. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots of ideas. Sensitive. Active mind . Hesitating. Tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Talkative. Daydreamer.. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Abiding. Able to show character. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Brand conscious. Executive. Stubborn.

JULY: Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional. Temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving... Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Likes to be quiet.Homely person. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Prone to having stomach and dieting problems. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover. Shy.Fun to be with.

AUGUST: Loves to joke. Attractive Suave and caring. Brave and fearless. Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to console others. Too generous. Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when provoked. Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly. Independent thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. Talented in the arts, music and defenses. Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance against illnesses. Learns to relax. Hasty and rusty. Romantic. Loving and caring. Loves to make friends.

SEPTEMBER: Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized. Likes to point out people's mistakes. Likes to criticize. Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Trustworthy, loyal and honest. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive. Thinking generous. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves sports, leisure and travelling. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Choosy especially in relationships. Loves wide things. Systematic.

OCTOBER: Loves to chat. Loves those who loves him. Loves to takes things at the center. Attractive and suave. Inner and physical beauty.. Does not lie or pretend. Sympathetic. Treats friends importantly. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care of what others think. Emotional. Decisive. Strong clairvoyance. Loves to travel! the arts and literature. Soft-spoken, loving and caring. Romantic!!! Touchy and easily jealous. Concerned. Loves outdoors. Just and fair.. Spendthrift and easily influenced. Easily lose confidence. Loves children.

NOVEMBER: Has a lot of ideas. Difficult to fathom. Thinks forward. Unique and brilliant. Extraordinary ideas. Sharp thinking. Fine and strong clairvoyance. Can become good doctors. Dynamic in personality. Secretive. Inquisitive. Knows how to dig secrets. Always thinking. Less talkative but amiable. Brave and generous. Patient. Stubborn and hard-hearted-if there is a will, there is a way. Determined. Never give up. Hardly becomes angry unless provoked. Loves to be alone. Thinks differently from others. Sharp-minded. Motivates oneself. Does not appreciates praises. High-spirited. Well-built and tough. Deep love and emotions. Romantic. Uncertain in relationships.. Homely. Hardworking. High abilities. Trustworthy. Honest and keeps secrets.. Not able to control emotions. Unpredictable.

DECEMBER: Loyal and generous. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations.. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing personality. Not egoistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to joke. Good sense of humor.

Monday, September 15, 2003

having a mirgraine n0w....shit..dun0 why suddenly like this again..
*g0 find panad0l extra*
0h f0rg0t...my h0use dun have...later g0 buy.....
what da hell...41 new messages? hmmm...g0t 5 junk mail...th0se stupid newsletters..

yesterday was s0 b0ring..and als0 my laziest day..why? cuz i din anything that is pr0ductive...sigh
i spent all day at my lappy...playin with ph0t0shop....decided t0 change my lay0ut lia0..ahhahaa...
and i make some er..nice pics ...but........da lappy shut d0wn because 0f low battery..and all my stuff were l0st.....
argh....damn it...
hahahhaa...my br0ther's teacher just called ...askin me why my br0ther din turn up f0r scho0l...
ahaha...and my br0ther....he still sleepin... hahahahaa....
yashi if u readin this...see lah~~ my preci0us br0ther ...li hai ar..

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Sunday, September 14, 2003

"Beauty is in the eye of the beholder"?

She was not beautiful.
Nothing about her was extraordinary.
Nothing about her made her stand out in a crowd.
She grew up in a family of six.
The eldest, she learnt responsibility at an early age.
As she grew stronger, and brighter,
She instilled a sort of light cheer to whomever she met.

She was not beautiful.
But she made others feel beautiful about themselves.
She meets a rebel boy who thinks he's all man.
Befriending him, she teaches him how to read,
A little boost the man needed to go to college.

They became friends fast and she fell,
Fast in love with her rugged, handsome student.
The "man" then finds himself in a dilemma
He soon found himself in love with a girl.
A girl so beautiful, she turned even the grouchiest men's head.
Her hair was a halo of light around her,
Her eyes the bluest blue of ocean.

Like an angel he tells his tutor
Like a beautiful angel.
The girl swallows a lump at her throat

She was not beautiful
She did not possess the heart of the one she loved
But she did not care.
As long as he was happy,
She would be or so she tried to.

She helped him write the most beautiful letter to his angel
All the time envisioning that it was she herself
Receiving those very letters.
And so the girl helped him choose the right words,
Buy the right gifts for his angel
His angel brought him much joy
And much pain to the girl who cried behind her smiles.
But that never stopped her from giving more
Than she will ever receive.

Then one day, all hell broke loose
The angel he loved left him for another man,
A richer, more successful man.
The boy was stunned
He was so hurt he did not speak for days
The girl went to him
He cried on her shoulder and she cried with him
He hurt and so did she.

Time went by.
And so the wounds heal.
The boy realizes something about his friend/tutor
He never realized before.
How her laughter sounded heavenly
Or how her smiles brightened up the darkest days.
Or simply how beautiful, yes beautiful she looked to him!

Beautiful.
This plain, simple girl was beautiful to him.
And he began to fall.
Fall so in love with this beautiful girl.

On one day, he picked up all his courage to see her.
He walked to her house, nervous ad fidgeting.
Running his thoughts over and over in his head.
He was going to tell her how beautiful she was to him.
He was going to tell her how wonderfully n love he was with her.
He knocked.
No one was home.

The next day he found out,
The beautiful girl he fell in love with had brain aneurysm
That put her into a coma.
The doctors were grim and the family decided to let her go.

One final time he got to see her.
He held her hand.
He stroked her hair,
And he cried for this beautiful girl.
He cried for he will never see her smile
Or hear her speak his name

He cried.
But it was too late.

The beautiful girl was buried and the heavens broke out
In a beautiful spring shower, a cry for their loss.
She was the most beautiful girl in the world.



Look around you.
Aren't there a lot of plain faces?
Take a good look
A real good look or you might miss out
On that beautiful person....

Forever.....

hey pe0ple...if y0u are SMARt and SHarP en0ugh, you will n0tice i g0t a new email address..hahah ...did any0ne dun kn0w that..? tsk tsk...s0 sad..hahahha kiddin..
f0r anything imp0rtant and seri0us...esp the ict pe0ple--->scribbleall0ver@yahoo.com
( ermm..f0r the w0rd " 0ver" the 1st letter is n0t an "o" ..its da number ZERo~ okie ..okay ar..)
and f0r all th0se nice and sweet pe0ple wh0 always send me nice stuff, its still this same 0ld email add --> bluez_monster@hotmail.com
hehe.... okay d0key thats all f0r n0w..
take care

*grins*
madelyne



was plannin to send this email t0 every0ne...but realised s0 many pe0ple's mail box is s0 full..
i just cant send this out...damn ...
haha..

feelin damn tired n0w..duno why
guess cause i din sleep well at afiq place last night...g0t a bad s0re thr0at n0w...
w0ke up feelin hungry...ate few crackers and a pancake
went t0 interview ..feelin at my w0rst..
the fragrance 0f da c0ffee just makes me feel w0rse while i was fillin 0ut the applicati0n f0rm
went h0me...feelin p00rer than ever...
h0use was ......w0w..haha..
spent 3 h0urs pluz cleanin n packin my stuff..
while i was g0in thru all the papers..tut0rials n practicals..i realised i waste s0 much time 0n fun
i really need t0 make my time w0rth -while
i think i will
...start fr0m n0w..