tons of things to settle
i am so messed up
argh...
crap

" we were meant to live for so much more"

i just want to hide away
and read
and READ
oh ya
enjoy some iced honey lemon juice as well

i need to swim...
*looks at myself*
mom said i'm looking like an indian
-_-"

my mom is the best!
she paid half of my handphone bills
yippee!
i really want to get something nice for her

i dont really have much respect left for my dad
*rolls eyes*

back to study
*drags myself back to room*

heya MV....
you know i could be happy
well i should be
somehow
the tone
the words
the attitude
makes me feel
....
tried to
be understanding
tried to empathize
in the beginning
lose my cool
in the end
why?
shit
if i knew i wouldnt be like this
...
yea i am pissed
so i dont know much
does that labelled me as one of the " stupid people" ?
though i know i am not (am i?)
though i know it doesn't mean that way
cant helped it
but not angry because of this
its the attitude
its ugly
its saddening
its scary

time to sleep
*hug pillow*
" another day goes by...
will never know just wonder why "

PS: thanks shu hui =)
*hug* you are really a true friend

i am learning to smile again
i've been working hard at scrowling and rolling my hands dismissively
to show my annoyance
hmm to reveal my emotions?
i shoulda be a pro at it now huh?
yeap...
*ponders*
nah...
actually i dont know
confused

first, a little history, humans aint good at expressing themselves
so ...we cant really blame men ..
=P
we are endowed with sets of facial expressions
to show our inner emotions
but..i think we need a manual book
for troubleshooting and stuff
haha...
okay ...its lame

my ankle is aching
crap
i wanna cycle

met jessica few days ago
we chatted for 40 mins
under the hot sun
i missed all my old friends
recalled*
rememberd only laughters
i wondered if i ever made any true friends in NP...
still looking...


wasnt feeling ..nice last night
no one takes my words seriously
i am very sick of it
aint wasting my time anymore
hahhaa...
need to relieve anger
there isnt much meaning left
i should learn to grow up...

mother's day coming
want to get something
sweet and nice for her
*thinks*

wonder what shall i do for my FYP..
any suggestions?

watched hellboy last weekend
he's totally cool
i like his attitude
ha...
wanna watch passion of christ again
maybe this time
i can at least open one of my eyes
to see his hand being nailed
*owww...*

thick-skinned guy want to collect comics now
hmm....
i think ill collect figurines ..
if i got enough bread...
sigh

D70 is out
retail price is $1888
*gulp*

thinking to get a laptop
there's this model that looks like imac
kinda posh
but
still considering

mom is takin 2 jobs now
its really hard on her
dad is not working yet
oh he isnt doin much help at home either
*rolls eyes*
my good for nothing brother ...
...so there is nothing to say about him

now..
back to PM

found this cool website
http://www.ninjaburger.com/fun/games/ninjaname/ninjaname.php


mine's Sanjuro Kumagai -san
0_o