Oh its a friday ..again ?

this is a uber-long post so spread ur reading over the next few days

i am still hestiant in meeting new people or even my friends ..
maybe because i totally lost my interaction skills
i shall give myself a pat for being performing so well on ber's birthday
happy (belated)birthday berilyn!
you are finally 21 !
i'm sure you will become a sexy and smart tai tai in no time

i finally get out of the house
my dad seemed happy when i told him i'm going out
"oh so you're not running today?"
felt terrible guilt..for a few seconds
i was late.. but i know shu hui will be late too..
take a bus mad.. save the 5 bucks for some yummy food later..
a 5 minute wait for the bus and another 20 minutes gone in jam along orchard road
i reached pacific plaza 430 sharp
my darling shu hui has yet to appear
after the 1 hour session, i made 2 conclusions
1) i am SO in love with yoga
2) the yoga lessons here are so blardy expensive
after much pondering , we gracefully rejected the offer
explaining to the poor salesman how finanically weak we are , how we need to sell off newspaper just to earn a few bucks to buy chicken rice & sugar cane juice for lunch
okay i'm exaggerating
next, i tried on this ruby red tub dress
but it looks like a gown to me
...
actually i think it is
okay the problem is i fell in love with that dress/gown ..

let's be practical
how can i spend 100 plus on a piece of clothing which i probably gonna wear for one night only and keep it in my closet for the next couple of years before i got the chance to wear it again?

"dun waste money lah"
one of my friends can be so straightforward

went down to javajam competition to support kenneth and hl
unexpectedly, i saw a few more friends and i see you around in school but i dont know your name faces
it didnt occurs to me i would be labelled as "traitor" when i told andy i was here to see kenneth as well...
but.. i did vote for HL as well
and.. jason's
overall, i am proud to be from ngee ann school of ICT

i was late meeting glad again
but its okay cause it just glad
haha.. but traffic along orchard is a killer
we went to heeren again..
and i tried another classic black tube dress at another store
i think the nice sales lady from IS is gonna turn nasty at me soon if i still don't buy the gown from her
well, i am truly convinced that black can really make a person looks slimmer
after the storewide 40% discount, it would be $209.15 * estimated

i can almost feel the huge pinch

hot chocolate at pacific coffee
hmm yummy and comfy
glad and i talked about things that affected , people who hurt, incidents that touched , sights that angered each of us
that evening, i was playing a role of someone who consoled a friend when he decides to break off the relationship
how contradicting life can be
few months ago , i was the girl whose heart got broken
i can't helped but feeling slightly angry at glad for doing this to the poor girl
yet at the same time, i fully understood how difficult the struggle can be
i paused and think about my situation
i understood
but i still feel angry
because i refuse to forget
because i refuse to accept
maybe i am finally growing up
nah.. i'm a cheater
i dont want to grow up

on the way home , i put myself through the judgemental attitude again
i tried to convince myself
don't think too much mad
don't think in that direction anymore
its more like i'm just lying to myself
it's just so tiring

my mom bought soft fruits&nuts cookies, dark chocolate brownies and white chocolate macadamia nut cookies
i think i shall have all
okay i be nice
i'll give my brother the wrappers