so many things to do
so little time

many nights, i felt helpless
tonight was no exception

this god damn laptop dont have enough space to install vb.net
desperation drives me angry...
when you called for help
who is gonna be the one to help you?

i fear tomorrow
for i know, i gonna be unhappy
why? cause if u see things that gonna make u unhappy
u naturally got unhappy right?????
feel like skipping classes tomorrow...
excuses excuses..
but i guess a 37.7 degree fever, sore throat, flu and headache can earns me a mc ..

sigh
its simply not an easy life for me
and its so not fair...
no i dont deserve all these
okay fine my fault... serves me right for being so stupid

Happy Lunar New Year !

its the chicken year~
ric ..its your year~
aint u happy?
haha
crazy....

i am sick..
this time, its physically sick....
i thought havin fever on new year eve was bad enough...
now with additional sore throat and running nose...
great ...*sniffles*
no i didnt take any yummy food yet...
only 1/4 of carlsberg special brew....
the remaining 3/4.. shared by my nieces and nephews...
my eyes are dry now...and its kinda aching..
okay look on the brighter side,
i wont whine about weight gain
but i will still fat..

i need to install vb.net now..
i got this ominous feeling about my fyp..
i dont want to fail..
neither do i want to pass..only
i want to make it good
a real nice grade for it
like what ian said about himself " i got high expectations for myself..but i am lazy as well"

something just irritates me off today
but i wont say..cuz its so ..embarassing
hahahhaha...

dont really got the mood to celebrate the festival now
more important to focus on..and for a person like me..who will easily get distracted
its better to not waste time....i dont have much time left too..

cant wait for friday's training~
hope i will get well ..in time

something quite different ..
aiya..so many things are different now..
i will be too.. soon...
i miss my cousin
haha..
hey girl, if u are reading this
just wanna say take care of urself~ *hug*
happy chinese new year =)


Sometimes I get emotional
Sometimes I do some stupid things
Sometimes I say what I should just keep inside
Sometimes I'm sad, about everything
Sometimes I'm mad, and break some things
Sorry times ten, but you just got in the way
Don't give up no, running away
I won't hurt you
Sometimes I'm just a pain
And that's the way it is
That's just the way I am
Sometimes I feel like crying
Laying down and dying
That's when I need you
Laughing's always easy
But sometimes I'm just scared you'll leave me
That's when I feel,
Emotional
You say I'm just, impossible
Totally, unpredictable
I'm just a girl, get used to it
No big deal
You can't change me
Why would you try
I'm no angel, but I can make you smile
And that's the way it is
And that's just the way I am
Sometimes I feel like crying
Laying down and dying
That's when I need you
Laughing's always easy
But sometimes I’m just scared you'll leave me
That's when I feel.
Emotional
Don't give up now, running away
I won't hurt you
Sometimes I'm just a pain
And that's the way it is
That's just the way I am
Sometimes I feel like crying
Laying down and dying
That's when I need you
Laughing's always easy
But sometimes I'm just scared you'll leave me
That's when I feel
Sometimes I get,
Emotional

can i say something very disheartening?

i want to be happy
i want to be strong..and stronger

but right now, i am simply too tired
i'm picking myself up
but the progress is too slow...sometimes not improving

at this point of time, i am tired to carry on living
but i am not that dumb to do anything stupid , yet

if remembered clearly, i did mentioned that i was going to post some of the pics from my trip
...let me fix my damn pc first

for once, i realized quite a no of people are actually reading my blog
its sort of comforting
especially when i dont really have a life of my own

yea i am still depressed

its another sunday

is it normal to admit that oneself is suffering from depression?

chinese new year is coming soon
my folks dont understand why i am not helping out with the housechores
on the other hand, i'm am not interested to explain why

one thing i love about sunday mornings
class 95 plays real nice songs

right now, i am really tempted to get an ipod shuffle for myself
especially after seeing steve getting one...
one can simply drools over it
plannin to get the 512mb ..178 bucks

i want the country road blouse !
its 69 bucks..
hmm seriously.. its an expensive top..

certainly, my previous entry attracts quite abit of attention
apologies to anyone who got offended
no, you people have been great to me
yes i enjoyed every single moment with you guys
but things are not quite the same anymore