i'm goin round in circles
i cant break free
will i know myself?
please tell me the way
cause' its too numb to feel pain
i cant tell what is happiness

teach me how to let go
teach me how to say yes
tell me the things in this world
so that i can enjoy
so i can say goodbye
with no tears behind



argh i am goin crazy ...
dun mind what i wr0te up there...
just n0w i was feelin happy...
n0w i am feelin kinda l0st..
what the hell am i thinkin ab0ut??
sigh.................i need t0 sleep

glad just t0ld me s0mething ..
hehe...c0ngrats t0 u pal
finally heed mui advice lia0 ar~~
hahaha...
*grins*

mui leg is gettin better i h0pe....
remind me n0t t0 cycle near c0uple again...
dun wan pe0ple jumpin int0 mui path again...haha
kinda diffcult n0t t0 run...swim...cycle...
sigh...

went back sch00l t0 meet c0llin...haha
luckily he g0t the NF b0ok ... thanks c0llin :)
haha...then we end up at bukit timah reserve park~~
saw many m0nkeys~~ haha...s0 cute
walked a very very steep sl0pe....
it will be s0 damn exciting t0 g0 d0wn 0n a bicycle....c0ol....
hahaha
ended up drenched ....stuck in a shelter packed with pe0ple..
chatted f0r a few h0urs i guess...
:) s0 glad we walked t0 the park
at least i still get t0 exercise..haha...

*l0oks at mui r0om*
messier than ever...
dad is naggin again..
he wans me t0 clear 0ut all the stuff in the cupb0ard...and i will end up sneezin and cursin
my c0usins gonna c0me t0m0rr0w m0rnin to thr0w away the 0ld furniture...
sigh..think i better turn in earlier...
and shut mui brain fr0m every0ne

c0llin , remember t0 send me mui file ar...i saved it in ur lappy
kenneth , i luVVV ur camera.... s0 dun call me anym0re.. haha
gladwyn , where the hell are you~~ u l0se in ur exam w0rld already ar~~

sigh ...think i have t0 start readin....
*l0oks at time*
better c0ntinue mui NF ...
sigh...w0nder wats the da max number 0f test i can fail..

li0nel t0ld me s0methin very interestin 0n friday..
haha..
and he tricked me int0 chattin with him f0r ..like alm0st 3 h0urs...
blame 0n mui 0wn stupidness..haha

You think you've made it
Everything is going so fine
But then appears someone who wanna
Tear you down
Wanna rip you off those
Few nice things you've found
When and if you hit the ground
Then it's falling kinda hard

'Cause all you do is being yourself
Trying everything to succeed somehow
But that's not the way things are right now
Feeling kinda lost

Those reasons
Those unkind words being expressed
Oh, they'll get to you, I promise, one day
But maybe that's too late for you to say
I knew it from the go, 'cause you know
That's some miles away from the truth
Don't forget

Hey, what do you think of me now
Am I not like I once were
Still if you don't know me
What's the story of this pen?
I guess you're not a stranger
And I can tell you're not a friend
It might take a while but I guess I'll manage waiting till then
Then, when you confront me with your thoughts

You may think I don't notice
Don't get a bit hurt by what you do
I ask to please think of
What I'vee done to you
Please search inside and let me know
If I've done something wrong I guess I÷Îl go
Far (far)
Hidden (hidden)
Never to be found

Just let me know
Then I'll go
Then Il'l go

dun wanna see any0ne right n0w
no...n0t that i'm angry at any0ne 0r whatever...
just wanna be al0ne..yea..guess thats what i need
time to breathe in mui 0wn pace
time t0 be away
time t0... die al0ne..haha
nah..kiddin

*looks out to the window*
perfect weather.......
hahaa...

been fallin in love with my eyeliner...
m0m b0ught me this eyeliner..and yea..
i'm h0oked by it..
:p
n0w i bring it everywhere with me..
and yea..0f cuz mui lip balm as well

excited b0ut havin f0rmal farewell dinner f0r the seni0rs..
hehe....
but realised that needs *kaching* m0ney...
makes me kinda vexed...
okay i mean vexed
lack 0f time...lack 0f sleep ..lack 0f m0ney
....life sucks...
been thinkin bout this for some time
w0nderin and imaginin..
pluz sc0ldin myself mentally
weighin the opti0ns with the pros and cons.....
h0w can i ever think 0f this ? i g0t n0 idea
me crazy..i admit but
i still can think with a clear mind

ecid is real nice...
s0metimes its really nice
and i bet it will be better if ....
oh well ...
maybe we just belong talk fr0m different frequency ba...
just an0ther day i spent talkin to myself again
dun think anyone will understand wat i am talkin about..
as usual i really dun care
haha...

think i'm g0in crazy s00n ...real s00n..
*looks at da calendar*
if i din hear wr0ngly...m0m said we are m0vin 0n 20th...which is like..3 days time??
L00k AT MY HOUSE??!!!
and i g0t t0 hAnd up mui tut0rial BY WED~~
m0vie 0n tuesday night~~
WAT THE HELL~~
havent b0ught much f0r mui r00m..
HAVENT EVEN GOT MUI own wardr0be~~
bed t00....hahaha

havin chalet ...s00n... f0r the farewell dinner and all..
kinda cramped ...mui schedule...
haven revise much 0f mui w0rk...
i'm c0untin h0w many tests i can fail this time...
sigh....

m0m and dad havin arguments ab0ut m0vin the flat again...
sigh..
all they d0 is grumble and grumble...
but never talk out with each 0ther
why cant gr0wn ups ever talk ?
and they said we kids are t00 immature t0 understand...
yea right...

n0w that i menti0n talkin..
finally had a chat with li0nel...
wat did we chat? eh...duno h0w t0 say...
i guess the meetin t0day is 0kay...
suddenly feel stressed..being in the main c0mm..
had s0 many discussi0ns t0day...
and m0m just t0ld me " we are m0vin 0n 20th..."
sigh...
ahaha
thats my family~~ same as me~~
*grins*

*yawns* g0tta d0 s0me amaths revisi0n..
dun wan t0 be on aura's list...

hmm..h0w sh0uld i start...
n0thin much t0 say...
s0 bye bye...haha

l0ok at mui fingers..still g0t paint on them
haha but i like..hahah
spent the late afternoon paintin our new flat..
s0 nice... i l0ve mui r00m~~

feelin abit invisible t0day...and sad..i dun0 why..sigh
pluz n0b0dy calls 0r sms me ....
and li0nel called ..feel s0 happy haha but ..just t0 tell me there will be a meetin t0m0rr0w..-_-""
can i dun g0? s0meh0w i feel that mui views and his are different ..n0w

watched the LEG last night...very nice..
went esplanade t0 see the paintin exhibiti0ns...
c0me t0 think 0f it..i d0nt really g0 0ut with them ..0n weekends...haha unless ber 0rganised it..
kinda glad t0 have ber t0 be at the m0vie t00... me feelin kinda extra haha
but then again ber g0t c0mpany lia0.. -_-" Ha~~

still haven think 0f a theme f0r the ph0t0 competit0n..
feelin abit disheartened...think i just wait f0r the feelin t0 c0me t0 me ba..
need glad t0 g0 out with me ...t0 get inspirati0n
glad if u are readin this.... " You are b0oked ~ okay? " buahahhaa

have t0 skip dancesp0rt...really feel very bad..
me like dancesp0rt al0t..but watchin medalli0n at 7.15pm..
dancesp0rt at 6pm.... wth..
haha..think i just g0 f0r 30 mins ba..
just t0 be there..
hehe..
me wanna be part 0f them :P