i'm now tiring my brain out
thinkin whether i should get my ass out of the house
i cant study PI cause every few minutes i will start surfing porn sites
PORN SITES??
oh for pete sake do i look like those horny slutty dressed bimbos u see on the streets???
okay back to PI.
seriously what do you study for PI?
oh well, i am now recallin back all my answers for practicals. Its kinda dumb for the tutor to present our answers in a mahjong size paper and hand it up to her at the end of the lesson. So how do we revise?
So its even extremely more dumber to recall all 7 practicals answers. if i manage to do that, i shall study no more . buahahahhaa...
S.Hui : hey gal sorry i cant watch AVP with ya, but u got _ _ _ with you. I really hope what you said are right. Cause i cant think correctly now.

i'm deciding whether to go thru the slide notes or just continue writing
i'm deciding whether to clean up this pigsy sty house of mine or start designin my new blog layout. My dad is forever leaving the papers around. My files and papers are flying in swarms!!
and the bathrooms stinks like J.Lo parfum , still no one seems to notice that awful stench. Why J.Lo parfum? i dun understand that myself. So who cares about her? My room needs tidying and i desperately needs a new table.I been mentioning i want to get a table but till now ....
i want to get my own desktop in my very own room
i want to get a full length mirror
i want to spend more time with rabia
i want to meet GLAD hello??? but he's so busy with his dearie..AWWW
i want to hang out with kenneth at lau pa sa !!!
i want blah blah blah... i'm working on it okay??? *screams*
but amidst all those nonsensical ramblings, i'm still sorta drowned in my own confusion
1 week ago, i was so teary and unreasonable that i lost total respect for myself
right now, i fully enjoyed what i have now and feels no need to rush things over
so what should i do???? it feels like a big risk to be ready
i am perfectly managing my life now( i think) so i dont want to take any chance
i used to get insecure about stuff..girls..my looks and everything, i dont mean i am very confident of myself now. No no...not yet. It's just become tougher to put me down
i dont get affected easily. At least thats what i think now.
i'm startin to think this post is making not much sense
FINE

thanks squid for listening to me and giving me such superb advice
till now , i am still COOL *grins*

the farewell dinner starts a new path for me
its been 2 years , i enjoyed every single moment i spent in cs room, making lame jokes, hanging out with the people, organising and giving ideas, being part of every single event
All the birthday celebrations, staying overs and crazy stupid stunts we done
hmmmm..... i love them all =)
All the best to the new main com and the whole new bunch of people out there!
make us proud okay?

it's a mixture of independence, self motivation and sadness
with a pinch of anger, slight irritation and some "whatever" attitude
just as i expected, i feel nice after that

life is treating me good
and i am treating myself better
*beams*


still i feel unfulfilled..not that i got everything i need right now
hmm its just the nagging feeling that makes u feel like you are in a rush
i'm makin new good habits now, to replace my bad ones
it's senseless to break your bad habits cause you never will
so i guess it's better to create good ones to override them

next week is my paper
and i seem to havin most of the fun before the exam week
but i've already prepare my revision
i should do well for this, after all, this is my one and ONLY paper
*grins* jealous?

work was tiring but i never felt so happy with myself for a long time
i love this kinda of tiredness!
and the early morning sky i'm seeing now is beautiful
cant wait for the farewell dinner tonight
missing my friends

i lost a friend today
in another less than 2 days
i gonna lose 2 more friends
one is a kuku
the other is my lama master
*sigh*

remember your promise
*wriggles little finger*

AVP Faceoff

Alien Predator Fight

make up class at 10 am
meeting xiaoP at 830 to review the whole assignment and report
should be swimmin in the afternoon
start on my tourism report
i think there's something wrong with my head
cause i been having headache at least once daily...
umm..okay

i've fulfilled most of my things to do list for today !


i am a moody freak
a part of me can be very nice and cheerful
another part of me can be dreadfully depressed and whinning all over
i think that's a crime

i want to cry out so much
but i hate being such a crybaby
i want to stay away from everthing
but this isn't the right way to do
i want to be the great pretender
but i will be nothing else

i ought to be stronger i guess
no matter how hard i tried to work this out
the assuring smile i used to see is gone
i feel so helpless now
but i can only smile and pretend it's okay
i think i should just disappear
things will go on smoothly