h0w b0red can i get..
when this is the 3rd time i update mui bl0g..within 1 h0ur?
sigh
hangin ar0und at h0me..
wanna g0 swimmin..
still rainin..?
n0t really..still cl0udy and abit 0f drizzle
els0n said t0 meet at a later time...haven c0nfirm with me
whu else g0in? n0 idea..
wanna get ken's cam fr0m glad..but..
cann0t lah..duhz..
cant get en0ugh 0f this s0ng..hahaa

w0ke up at 9.30am...why ? cuz the alarm w0ke me up mah...
h0w stupid can u get...haha

send the updated sitemap t0 xia0p...hope its okay..

planned t0 g0 swimmin ...but..l0ok at the weather...
damn...its g0nna be a l0ng rain..
guess i cant swim t0day after all..
*huh mad? th0ught u like to swim in rain too?*
yea i d0... but n0t in this kinda rainy days..
there are many kinds u kn0w...
*oh....*

t0day is the death anniversary 0f elvis presley
.. hmm.. duno wat is da year..
been dead f0r s0 l0ng liao..cann0t remember..
he died in his bathr00m..haha.. i think...
eat t00 many drugs liao ba...

rain gettin bigger...
elson..h0w to g0 and feel ur inspirati0ns ..~~
feel the m0ther nature ba~~
rain..........is a nice way to love yourself
stand in the rain ...and feel better..
rain ...
stand in the rain ....and love the world
cuz when the raindrops fall 0n you
all you hear is only the rain
everything feels so still
da feelin is cold..
da feelin is sad...
so believe in the rain
thats what rain is for~

yea~~ me finally g0t this song...l0ve l0ve this s0ng..
thanks sylver :)

perfect s0ng to listen n0w...sittin d0wn..surfin the net..drinkin h0t mil0..*jeal0us?* haa...

I entered the room
Sat by your bed all through the night
I watched your daily fight
I hardly knew
The pain was almost more than I could bear
And still I hear
Your last words to me.

Heaven is a place nearby
So I won't be so far away.
And if you try and look for me
Maybe you'll find me someday.
Heaven is a place nearby
So there's no need to say goodbye
I wanna ask you not to cry
I'll always be by your side.

You just faded away
You spread your wings you had flown
Away to something unknown
Wish I could bring you back.
You're always on my mind
About to tear myself apart.
You have your special place in my heart.

Always heaven is a place nearby
So I won't be so far away.
And if you try and look for me
Maybe you'll find me someday.
Heaven is a place nearby
So there's no need to say goodbye
I wanna ask you not to cry
I'll always be by your side.

And even when I go to sleep
I still can hear your voice
And those words
I never will forget

here's a few jokes....(lame th0ugh..........)

j0ke1
mad walkin around the furniture fair...lookin around..
salesman sp0ts her and walks t0wards....
salesman : hello can i help you?
mad: oh hmm..nah..just lookin around..thanks
salesman: you're moving t0 an0ther place?
mad : yea...(starin at the bed...quite nice...)
salesman: u can try and sit on it if u wan
mad: oh its okay..i still need to discuss with mui parents..
salesman: 0h you still living with your parents?
mad: ( huh??) eh ...yea yea....
What the hell......did he mean by that??

j0ke2
salesman: hi (smilin)
mad: hello ...
salesman: m0vin 0r just wanna get s0mething new?
mad: oh...m0ving..
salesman: oh take your time...we g0t all the latest..f0r all h0mes
mad: oh 0kay 0kay..thanks
salesman: s0 h0ws the flat ? ren0vati0n okay i h0pe?
(mad....* is he thinkin i'm gettin married??*)
mad: eh ya...s0 far s0 g00d...i think i g0 back and discuss with my husband....
salesman: ok...come back s00n ~
(mad..walks 0ff..)
WHAT THE HELL~

j0ke 3
(mad just walked 0ut fr0m the t0ilet....and passes by this wedding ph0t0 takin stand....)
man: hey hey miss ~ interested in takin s0me ph0t0s?
mad: eh n0 thanks..
man: can be 0ur m0del then? we can pay y0u...
mad: huh..eh n0 n0 thanks.......(walks faster)

c0nclusi0n : .....i als0 dunn0......sigh ..suddenly feel very 0ld...hahaha

feelin damn damn pissed n0w....
at every0ne..especially myself..
i dunn0 why..
i dun care why.....
yea me being unreas0nable..
but i dun give a damn care...
i'm s0rry if i'm being mean
i'm s0rry if i'm being unreas0nable..
i'm s0rry if i s0und rude..

but really ..... i feel i spent m0st 0f my time...w0nderin ...
and w0nderin..

what am i thinkin.....
what am i d0in...
this feelin sucks..esp when everything just seem s0 wr0ng...
when all the pe0ple seem t0 be s0 ....wr0ng..
and u feel just s0 pissed............
n0thin but just anger....

maybe i just need t0 take s0me anger managment class....

...just realised i g0t french h0mew0rk t0 d0.............
....g0 t0 finish ecid site map by t0night............
when i th0ught i finish it.....but...

add 0n t0 this year res0lutions..
+ g0 h0me early m0re 0ften~

feelin kinda mixed up n0w..
need a getaway haha..why?
i g0t n0 idea..
why feelin vexed?
hell ...cant find a reas0n..
d0 i need a reas0n t0 be vexed?
i dun give a damn..
l0okin f0rward t0 next tues..
dancesp0rt..i think i can fall in l0ve with it..haha
l0okin f0r s0mething new...
s0mewhere n0b0dy kn0ws me ..haha
wat da heck..

i just wanna g0 0n writing....
write all my life away..haha...and also sleep...haha

my dad and br0 are " singin 0pera " again...
i guess this is s0mething i have t0 get used t0 it after all..

*l0oks at time*
8.24pm...hmm..
alias will be playin at 9pm..sh0uld i watch?
maybe...if i can finish mui amaths tut0rial...
mui ecid ...haha..

li0nel gave this erm..what d0 u call this..
headlight? f0r mui bike..
t0 li0nel : thanks...you really sh0uldnt have
and i mean REALLY
:p

bery was kinda upset t0day...
0kay..she was UPSET..
why?? hmm...n0 idea..
0_o"
really~~ i swear ~ n0 idea..haha

me g0nna paint mui flat 0n sunday i guess..
any v0lunteers? 0r friends i can rely 0n??
*silence.........*
thanks al0t...
being a l0ner is hard en0ugh...
but kn0win you are the 0nly l0ner ...is da hardest..
Hey even l0ner has their l0ner friends right?
what the hell am i talkin about...sigh
n0 idea..
anyway this is n0t the first time ..haha..

skipped dancesp0rt t0day... cuz i really feel very tired..mentally i mean..
cant take anymore loneliness ...haha..
cuz 0nly me 0ver there with n0 0ne t0 talk t0....
s0 sad...
haha..but i can d0 it :)
i will gr0w up..
cuz i am madelyne mah~~
*weak smile*

me missed rabia....
but i guess its my fault t00... i din call her ...
me missed glad..
but this time its not mui fault.....he's t00 busy t0 help me paint flat on weekends..buahha..
t0 glad : s0rry
if u kn0w what i mean
but then again~ you are at fault t00~~ :p
haha..

thats all f0r n0w..i guess...0k 0k..
cant stand me anymore..
haha..s0metimes i cant stand myself t00..
t00 many c0nfusin th0ughts inside makes me g0 crazy... :p

s0mething makes me feel very sad...
all the babies hamster and its mummy died~~
*sob* *sob*
n0t fair...sigh
t0 think me and dad are the 0nly 0nes t0 witness the new b0rn hamsters...
its s0 amazing... and beautiful...
is that what we called life?
certainly...life is beautiful and fragil...


els0n askin me t0 j0in this esp0n ph0t0 challenge thingy..(think thats da name of the competition..if i remembered c0rrectly..)
haha...
guess i cant say n0.... cuz i s0rta wan s0me0ne t0 j0in with me ..but i dr0pped that idea ..
still... i d0nt really have any c0nfidence ...
give it a try ba ...

d0in ecid site map n0w...
have t0 sh0w the...hmm..mr whatever guy ..t0m0rr0w
t0morr0w g0nna be an0ther l0ng day.....
haha..

gave li0nel this t-shirt t0day..
the medallion shirt...haha.. me still g0t 0ne m0re XL...
w0nderin whu sh0uld i give....
havent d0ne mui amaths tut0rial..yet..
spent the early night at my uncle place..
decided 0n my r00m c0l0r already..haha
might be paintin the flat 0n fri / sat..
0ops sat... f0rg0t that i'm b0oked...
hmm...better c0nfirm 0n fri ba..

*l0oks at the time*
think i better g0 and c0mplete ecid
*set alarm to 7am... *
must d0 amaths...

ARGH what the hell??
where are th0se things i just wr0te??
what da f**** !!
sigh......................................................................

-_________-""

n0w at library again...yea yea me 0ld b0rin pers0n..
supp0sed t0 study DB..but CLEO was 0ut ..and i just cant resist reading it straight away..
g0tta d0 amaths tut0rial ...t0m0rr0w aura g0nna make us c0me out and d0 the questi0ns
havent did mui ECID site map yet..need to make s0me ammendments..hmm..

hehe..me g0in to watch " The medallion" pre-screenin...(thats what they call right?) on 19th Aug..next tues..haha..
will be 0n a sch0ol night ...
hmm.... h0pe i can make it...
wanna see jackie chan...MY HER0~
buhaha...

realised i been eatin al0t these few days..
g0nna st0p myself fr0m bec0min a pig
swam al0t yesterday...
was keepin tracks oof the number of laps i swam..until i l0st c0unt...
n0w i'm w0rried if my sh0ulders will bec0me br0ader...
sigh
maybe sh0uld g0 back t0 runnin..haha
me still like running.. :)
think i sh0uld get a pair r0llerblades s00n...been puttin it 0ff f0r s0 long
digi cam...guess i will get it after i m0ved...
there's s0 many things i wanna get..
hifi.... carpet ....and many things ..all f0r mui new flat..
already ch0se da c0lor 0f mui r00m..
its plum r0se..hahah.... s0unds funny huh?
kinda stress n0w cuz have t0 think f0r s0 many stuff..
the settings and all..
mum been cranky and dad is already l0sin it..
and my br0... wans black f0r his r0om.... dumb assh0le..
sigh..
br0ught sandwich f0r lunch...
in da end there isnt much time left f0r breakfast..but then again i dun take breakfast...:P
and for n0 reas0n.. i was feelin damn hungry after 00p ..
s0 i ate da sandwich hahaa...
n0w i'm w0nderin sh0uld i eat lunch...
cuz the next break will be at 4pm..hahaha
buhaha... *what are you talkin bout mad? *
me? talkin t0 myself again lah...t00pid
Argh..what the hell ~
this malay guy beside me....takin out his kaya bun to eat...
-_-""
sigh........
haha... neber mind ...take it as a diet
buhahha...
hmm..some of these days.. i g0tta g0 f0r a det0x diet...
*deep in th0ught*

time : 2.15pm
p0sted at : 9.24pm

wasnt plannin to write anything...
but then when layla kaylif song plays...i changed mui mind...haha

had a really fun night at KJ place..the place was c0ol..the f0od was great..and the pe0ple are da best~
haha...
decided t0 make jap curry ...
rushed d0wn to ntuc and get all da ingredients..haha...
in da end mum and dad have to nagged at me...
really want t0 get drunk...
but cant...cuz i fell asleep bef0re c0llin came back fr0m 7-11...
and they din WAke ME up....*sad*

w0ke up at 7am...feelin damn dehyrated...
drank l0tsa water....
had a bath and feel much better..
lay d0wn and cl0sed my eyes
haha...
n0pe..me din fell asleep again..just cl0sed ,ui eyes t0 relax...
headed d0wn t0 sch00l t0 meet mui "lao g0ng" and da 0thers t0 d0 ecid assignment..
finally finish da pagelay0ut and sitemap
slept there f0r...erm..n0 idea
when i w0ke up they just finish
haha...perfect timin...
went h0me t0 rest ....and wait f0r els0n t0 call me
plannin to watch and take pics 0f the firew0rks in da evenin...
haha...the firew0rks were beautiful
but i still prefer the night i was at bangkok..plannin to backpack to m'sia or g0 t0 bangk0k...durin the h0ls...
learn m0re b0ut ph0t0graphy n0w..and i fell m0re in l0ve in it t00..haha
spent al0t 0f money lately...
guess i have t0 make my 0wn lunch ...like c0llin~~ haha

al0t of things been g0in on in mui head..
i need to let it all 0ut..haha
but n0t here :)
haha....

goin swimmin s00n..
*grins*