----this is the negative side 0f me-----
i"m feelin very farked up n0w......
*mad walks int0 the livin r00m , askin mum f0r ideas*
mad : ma...what sh0uld i d0....ab0ut the transp0rt f0r firew00d and water..i cant spilt int0 2 mah...
ma : see lor...actually u sh0uld d0 only f0r ur job can lia0....why dragged y0urself int0 this...
mad: its a resp0nsiblity mah...besides my frens als0 help me in my treasurer j0b..
ma(with a heck care face) : s0 ...dun0 lah ...up t0 u lor...since u landed urself int0 this...
++ end of st0ry++
in fact i had en0ugh liao...kinda used to it....all these years she never b0ther..the same ending..the same results i see ...i given up 0n her...th0ugh sometimes i feel so helpless..and hurt...i kept remindin myself i will be str0ng....
thanks al0t mum
times when u feel so irritated and stressed up, u need s0me0ne in ur family to lend a listenin ear...but cant...its s0 sad...
at the same time
lionel askin me if i told the freshies all the inf0rmation....yes yes i did...
li0nel : ehhhh..so did u tell them where n wen to meet those stuff
mad: yes....i also send them the email....tellin them all the details...
li0nel: .......funny ppl ...so i just take it as they noe bah
mad: i call them again ( abit...frustrated...)
li0nel : u sure i think its alrite ba
c0nclusi0n : i think i just call them again to give u the answer.........
huh* yes yes i'm back fr0m KL...yea yea had a nice time
can i say no? haha...doesnt really matter to me...
spent the whole day preparin stuff f0r the 3d0......reali reali stressed
t0 ben : you are a goodand crazy (haha..) project leader dun worry lah trust u ~ =) hang on there~
suddenly wanna said all my unhappiness 0ut l0ud....but like i said ... w0rds can change the things ar0und you....
and i 'm used to all these...
i 0we alot of pe0ple since i entered p0ly....so i been feelin bad of myself...
sigh....gettin to n0where...back to 3d0
*looks at the time* 12.07 am...eh...think my alarm clock is faster
n0w is 28th june....
transport water t0 sent0a 0n 29th - checked
transp0rt firewood to sentosa on 29th -checked
timin with b0th parties confirmed- half way d0ne....
still g0t t0 get en0ugh pe0ple t0 carry the stuff...
dun wana b0ther ben...he's g0in crazy ....
dun wana b0ther li0nel....he's busy en0ugh..
derrick? see if he can wake up in the m0rnin .....sigh
h0w to arrange the venue....h0w to arrange place f0r the pe0ple t0 meet...damn damn
my brain wun w0rks...
t0m0rrow meetin ben & derrick t0 buy stuff f0r the treasure hunt games....
great ...c0untin money....my w0rst nightmare...
havent calculate the remainin am0unt of cash we left....
haven read the games ben sent me...great great...perfect perfect....
yea this is still the negative side of madelyne...
d0in some self reflecti0n while typing....and readin it again....
sigh....suddenly feel so guilty....
-_-" gals mah.......we are fickle minded...haha
its our priority mah
very very very tired....
t0m0rr0w m0rnin.....g0t to help 0ut with my dad....
aftern00n...back t0 sch00l ...finish all the equipments buyin...any extra time(hopefully..there is)
...get s0me t-shirts and a cap....
havent packed my stuff yet...
maybe i'll g0 h0me on monday....
tuesday is the 1st day 0f the camp....
s0 fast....s0 little time...
n0w to sleep
....dun feel like talkin...