dun0 why the hell i g0 t0 sch0ol f0r t0day..
0nly had 1 and a 1/2 h0ur 0f french ...
clara called me t0 g0 t0 da cs r0om during class .. i asked her can i c0me at 10am .. i really wanna attend da wh0le less0n..
she said n0... its urgent...
irritated... i asked ms sabine m0ulin t0 excuse m0i....
and s0 i went t0 cs r0om just t0 punch da h0les 0n da number cards...
what da heck......... really kinda pissed 0ff...
tired and f**ked up.. all 0f us just d0 what we can..

f0r da 1st time in the hundreth years... i asked my mum f0r 20 bucks..
wanted to buy a new bag... mine's sp0ilt..
just 20 bucks.. and i t0p up da rest.. but bef0re i can even ask her
she turned me d0wn...
very sick t0 tell da st0ry
very irritated t0 talk b0ut it..
me wanna w0rk hard ... f0r everything..
maybe its kinda unth0ughtful 0f me..
but s0metimes i w0ndered.. " am i supp0rting myself 0r wat?"
0r am i being t00 selfish?
and i'll feel so damn guilty again..
this is a bad cycle .. is it?

me cant seem t0 take pictures t0night...
the feelin isnt there...
the pics l0oked s0 fake...
everything d0nt feels/ l0oks 0kay...
glad said my pics feel s0 funny ...
sigh f0rget it... t0night is n0t the right day..

sang all da campfire s0ngs f0r the wh0le night
been drivin glad crazy with all my singin and yellin..
had cheese 0mmettle n00dles f0r dinner ..yummy~
glad was in a m0ody m0de ... well in da early evening..
but with m0i~ he can stay in happy ~~
haha... at least he smiles ... :)

eyes damn heavy..
think i'll write s0me stuff t0m0rr0w...
what am i g0nna d0 on sat?
same 0ld stuff...
cyclin in da m0rnin.. that is if i can wake up early.. wanna feel the m0rnin breezee..
its amazin , u feel s0 glad t0 be alive haha..
g0tta g0 t0 da library t0 return s0me b0oks..

*grins* pluz *yawn*

t0morr0w is da party lia0...
kinda excited...kinda tired..
s0 many things t0 d0..
s0 little time t0 d0...
wanna ask m0i class t0 j0in da party, but... i think da answer is 0bvi0us..
hahaha...

me g0in t0 have alarms ar0und me t0night..
i dun wanna miss french again...
damn...n0wadays.. i been sleepin s0 much..
me pig arh... hehe

swam hm.. alm0st 20 laps t0day..
th0ught the tut0rial starts at 4...actually it was 3..

meetin just 0ver... pe0ple s0 blur..
pe0ple s0 unhappy..haha..
but guys things will turn 0ut 0ky de.. dun w0rry !

me g0tta rush..wanna get nice sh0ts..
at da b0tanic garden hahaha...

*grins*

this p0st is specially t0 my cuzin..yashi
hehe

hey jie, dun be so erm... stressed up 0kay? u stil g0t me mah~ me ur hao peng you~
haha...
enjoy these times searchin ur 0wnself ba..
haha.. talkin rubbish liao..

still g0t anythin , just call and we g0 0ut and have s0me gal fun 0kay?
luv you :)
remember keepthc00l ? haha...

mad had a unlucky day t0day...alll the curses just c0me true...

1)w0ke up late f0r less0n...
dun kn0w what the hell am i d0in... dun understand 0op ..

2)mui waterb0ttle ...abit cranky..da lid keeps c0min 0ff*s0b s0b*
i really luv mui red waterb0ttle...

3) mui bag is spoilt.... the strap just comes 0ff like that... sigh...

4) have t0 stay back f0r b0oth duty..sigh...


ber is designin her p0ster n0w.. what b0ut me?
hm... havent finish.. g0t n0 inspirati0n.. g0t n0 energy t0 think...

the guys are playin badmint0n..
me wanna play...
me wanna j0in in...
haahaa..
neber mind.. me runnin later in the evenin.. wahhaha
wanna borr0w li0nel's discman again..but..
aiya neber mind lah...dun feel nice askin him again..haha

me n0w listenin t0 miriam yeung's s0ngs..
haha.. me luv her~ *why?*
cuz hmm...cuz... she's what i want t0 be~ hahahha

had a nice chat with glad last night..
glad----> we are still y0ung~ we can be reckless s0metimes.. but must with brains that is..hahaha..what am i talkin about?haha.. me als0 dun0 :) but s0metimes if we dont try , we never kn0w.. i feel much better after tellin u many stuff.. hehe thankz :p


*grins*

There's always something
In the way
There's always something
Getting through
But it's not me
it's You

Sometime's ignorance
Rings true
But hope is not in
What I know
Not in me
It's in You

It's all I know

And I find peace
When I'm confused
I find hope when
I'm let down
Not in me
But in You

I hope to lose myself
For good
I hope to find it in the end
Not in me
It's You
It's all I know

me d0in thinkin 0f a st0ry f0r p0m...
t00 many theories t0 apply ....
g0in crazy s00n..hahha

t0morr0w the guys are playin badmint0n..
dun0 sh0uld i j0in in 0r not...

*look in da mirror*
feel s0 fat...
l0ok s0 fat...
think s0 fat..
sigh...
argh... i need t0 l0se s0me weight...
*miserable me*

i failed my a maths test.... sigh...
and i thought i can pass...
aura alm0st killed us with her erm.... evil aura t0day...
haha....

havin ecid n0w....
its fun i guess... all we d0 n0w are case studies...
but m0st 0f my team mates dun really care....
i think they will be seri0us when the assignment c0mes ba...

had a great run yesterday... i din kn0w i was that breathless till i reached da hill....
think its because 0f da l0ud music bangin in my head..hahaha...li0nel's discman is very very g0od...
and a great dinner t00..
realised one thing.. ever since i start runnin again.. i will get very hungry and ate alot f0r dinner... die die..h0w h0w..
wanna l0se weight....

hehe.... squid's hair l0ok abit different t0day..
hmm.. h0w sh0uld i say ... she l0oks .. s0 sweet t0day...haha...
wanna ask ric t0 c0lor mui hair.. me wans purple red ...hahaha

da guys in my klass n0w singin this h0kkien s0ng...n0 idea what the hell is that..
buhahah....chinese s0ngs..then english s0ngs...hahhaa...

*yawn* sleepy...dun0 why...me l0ve sleepin...
wahhaa...

havin a really nice nice chat with shu hui.....
what did we talk b0ut? hehe..
l0ve...guys...gals.... and m0re l0ve... :)
shu hui --- dare to l0ve ..dare t0 let g0..okay? lets try t0gether ~

guys...are they c0mplicated? hmm yea think s0...
gals ...are they c0mplicated? yea.... i always c0nfused myself...s0 i dun blame u guys...f0r being stupid...
hahahha....

i still dun what am i l0okin f0r...
and i'm still searchin.... so when will i find the real me...
is that what i am l0okin f0r?
maybe its been standin right in fr0nt 0f me all these time...
t00 blind t0 see it ...

s0metimes ...when i say 0nething...
but after that.. when i'm all al0ne... thinkin...i find myself s0 contradictin...
cuz i kn0w i am n0t like this...s0 why try s0 hard t0 be the 0ther way ....


c0llin said when you find your true self, you will bec0me m0re matured...
but i dun wana be matured..haha...
i wanna be ignorant...be childish...
:P
i learned s0mething while i was w0rkin at TMC, there's this nurse... she t0ld me t0 g0 f0r what i want...study and learn what i want...
cuz i am still y0ung...i can d0 what i want...
i just wanna kn0w what am i l00kin f0r...kn0w what am i d0in...
able t0 take care 0f myself... able t0 take care 0f my family...
cuz ..i'm still 17 ...whahaha *winks*
cuz.. i am still y0ung....
cuz... i am a girl...
cuz.. i am me...
cuz ..i am madelyne...

s0 will i be able t0 f0rget him?
wh0 kn0ws?
time will tell ...time can heal

s0.... will i be able t0 f0rget him? i said i will in the earlier p0st...
hehe... s0 ... i will give my best sh0t ;)


suddenly realise ..s0metimes i am reali abit crazy,
what can i say? i l0ve life t00 much...
t00 wasteful n0t t0 spent s0me time on da crazy part 0f yourself
hahaa...

are you lonesome tonight~~ hahahhaa
shit i l0sin it again..hahahhaa

wah so late liao...wah write s0 many stuff...
g0tta run...erm..yea run ~

credits t0 : c0llin :) thankz nice talkin to you...
shu hui =p l0ve ya
glad ^-^ thankz f0r p0stp0in the walkat0n f0r me...hehe....

ps: will be edited...after my runnin..ahhaha...t00 many things t0 write..~~

feelin damn lazy t0day...w0ke up at b0ut 12 n0on..feels s0 g0od haha
still need t0 clean up mui r0om..been delayin since sch0ol's starts...

last night's c0ncert was really nice...makes me wanna j0in da band..haha =)
but i'm c0nsiderin b0ut j0inin the dance gr0up....need t0 get m0re inf0r b0ut it..
but i guess it wil affect my electi0n, s0 i'm kinda ...thinkin...b0ut it...

went t0 view the new flat yesterday m0rnin...s0 cant see andy 0ff...sigh s0 sad..
but manage t0 exchange a few w0rds with him...thankz t0 li0nel :)

need t0 d0 the I & E as s00n as p0ssible...vincent's been naggin at me...
g0tta get derrick t0 clear up da receipts...feel very uptight...hate c0unting m0ney...
bleh...

feelin s0 ....heavy..
later g0in runnin later~~ its a must~~
cuz why? i been eatin wh0le day...
gettin fatter....
die die...
whaahhaa...

me finally 0ver him~ at least that's what i think..hmm...
shu hui said thats s0 unlike me...haha...maybe..
wh0 cares? cuz me is madelyne~
yea~
*grins*