Dilemma

2 more weeks to my confirmation
My in-charge seems to be very excited over it

on the contrary, I'm having second thoughts

....
how funny

if he gives me an increment
i might stay

hahaha

*ponders*

well, we'll see about that

one of the most played songs in my list

=(


feeling queasy

i think i ate too many cakes this week

chocolate cake
oreo cheesecake
fruit cake
brownie
durian cake

and i had fried rice & hor fun at 2am on Saturday morning
chili crab on sunday

no wonder my stomach cannot take it

how

i feel so fat now

aiyo

go run somemore la

okay, bye


*updated

addition to my cake list
-coffee bean's carrot cake & boston nut brownie

well, more running/skating/swimming should be enough to make up for all these sins

i got a problem with myself

i've been thinkin

i would love this job of mine because
1) it's so near my place, i hardly spent on transport except on weekends
2) i got really nice colleagues. I've got tiramisu, oreo cheesecake and brownie from them! :p
3) lunch is cheap and yummy!
4) i got tons and tons of magazines to read !

but

this is not what i want
i'm doing everything but marketing


negative me : " suan le! just give your resignation letter! "

positive me : "Ahhh no no way! i wont give up yet! There might be better things on the way!"

negative me : "yea right! like when ? huh when?"

-_-"

sigh

perhaps i have become judgemental
perhaps i have become a bore
perhaps i have become an ungrateful person

and i'm so unhappy with myself
i looked at myself in the mirror and wondered
why can't i be smart enough?
why can't i be mature enough?
why can't i be pretty enough? ( yes it matters! )
why can't i be rich enough?

ergh

that's so wrong to think like that

ahhhhh think positive think positive think positive !